wat is this?!

ok
so i may or may not be depressed cuz my problem basically was that I had lost all my confidence back and was started to think wat others think of me.
I then start to repair wat had gone wrong.
And occasionally get past hauntings but then i get over them within day or 2.
This time it took me a month cuz i had lost my repaired faith again but have gotten it back now.

Now the problem is that whenever im about to enjoy something or just study,this thought at back of my head comes in and tells me that " I CANNOT ENJOY-or STUDY cuz im thinkin wat others think of me(the past haunting) then i tell myself-NO!IM OVER IT!and try to enjoy but it gets stuck with me.

This has been going on for years-but not constant-sometimes it does sometimes it doesnt.

Now is this all in my head?or what?

((((( Nabil )))))

I think in another thread you said that you had been bullied. This is something you need to talk about with someone. You need to deal with how you felt back then in order to have more confidence in yourself now. Trying to deny it and say you are over it doesn't work because it keeps nagging at you. I hope you will seek out a therapist to talk over these issues.

Hi,
I am not sure if this will help you at all and I am not 100% sure that I understand your problem fully but i interpreted it in a way that is similar to something i occassionally do.
if it's not the same thing, sorry and ignore me!
just sometimes i think of what people are thinking of me and you don't want to do something because you think oh what will they think about me and you begin to think of all sorts of negative things. mine also came and went. sometimes i would think about it all the times, then it would go away, other times it would just randomly pop into my head and i didn't want to continue doing it.
anyway, my counsellor said it is important not to generalise on these things, because really you don't know what they are thinking about you! so now what i do is everytime i think like that i will say in my head stop! then i remind myself that there is no way i could ever know what someone is thinking about me and that it doesn't even matter in anyway!
i don't know if that will help you at all! deffo talking about your probelsm will really help though so well done for saying about it

sillycat!
thanks for sharing that with me but u have a somewhat different problem though i do have negative thoughts.
I do not generally think wat peeps think of me.Its just what happened to me in the past leads me to that incident and then the cycle starts all over again.
Sometimes i feel like i should just throw my head away!