[perhapsbelligerent]

my job is a great source of misery in my life, and unfortunately i only get about one day off a week from it.

on that one day off, i usually sleep intill noon, and spend the rest of the day watching TV, laundry, and well this (internet). which dont get me wrong, sleeping, tv, and keeping my clothes clean are all great things, but i usually go to bed feeling i wasted the day. not to mention during the day, i cant help but to think, my life sucks.

i worked this hard to get to this point, and my highlight of the week is a Burn Notice marathon on the USA network and clean underwear...

I've tried changing it up, and going to bed early the day before, waking up early, adding exercise and maybe a NA meeting, trying to do something different like going to a movie... but yeah, i keep reminding myself this sucks, and im not really having fun.

i dont really know what is fun anymore. i forgot it somewhere along the way of drugs, prison, and isolation. now it seems i just wonder around aimelessly without a point.

the days i work i atleast have a purpose. it's purpose i really dont like, and get paid horribly for, but it's a purpose.

i dont know, time off just makes me reflect on how bad my life is right now, and i dont know what to change about it.

[turquoisesea]

are there friends you can be with?

Can you get outside? Sunlight can do wonders - wont fix everything but it can really help. It's good that you exercise

[justfloating]

Wish I had some advice, but I do want you to know that I understand and you're not alone in feeling that way.

[3velniai]

I don't have any words of wisdom, but i think turquoisesea is right, if you can just try to get out of the house and meet with some ppl. If you are alone, you can also have a good time outside, go to any place you feel comfortable, maybe a park or just have a walk down the street for a little bit, or a shop, or some other place. If you feel lonely beeing outside , maybe some music would help. When i feel low i sometimes go to the park, listen to music and watch dogs play (it makes me smile eventually) or just watch people. I also like to take some bread and feed pigeons or take some cheese and feed cats. Makes me smile too. If I don't feel like going outside I like to play simple computer games, like click on 3 yellow bubbles and they will dissapear, make all the bubbles dissapear Stupid games, but they make my mind occupied and I stop thinking about life and stuff.
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