Lost and no where to turn

I don't really know how to say all I want to say. I don't want this sounding like I want to change how things are. I just feel like I don't exist. I go into chat and for the most part I want to support others. But when I need support there is almost no one. Like today (this happens a lot) there were 10 people in chat and I go to support and end up just sitting there alone. No one to help. I feel like unless I am supporting others I don't exist.

Then comes the other problem. When I do find someone it is the same few people that support and I feel like I am just going to bother them by talking about things because I don't want what has happened before where I am told I am ALWAYS talking to the same people and are too dependent on them. I don't mean to do this. I just need support and can't get it.

I don't want people to think this message is to change and for people to just come to support me because of this message. I don't want to pressure anyone into things.

I am just very lost. I don't know where to go. I feel like I deserve to hide. Which is why I create the room deserve to hide or hiding or what not because I feel like If I can sit in support alone with 8-20 people in chat and sit there alone for over an hour I guess I am in non existance.

Well I have to go to work.

Sorry for the ramble. It takes a lot for me to post anythign.

Doll

That must not feel good. I am sorry that happens. Hang in there keep trying.

Good Morning Doll,

This is Kitt. I belong to several larger forums.

Anyone can join in and share however that does not necessarily mean that everyone will receive a comment. I have posted many times but to help and support not necessarily looking for a response from my sharing. I have thousands of posts on other forums and trust me members will go right past mine and onto something else. I would have left forums a long time ago if not getting a response meant members did not support me.

That does not mean they have overlooked me, they are just reading through and posting what they choose whether it be to share or to support.

I know I am sensitive and I have to reign in those feelings on some days and other days it does not bother me.

Knowing yourself well and loving yourself helps you overlook moments when you are feeling like you described. I know your feelings are real and it hurts to feel left out but please do know you are valued.

Gentle Hugs
Kitt

hey there, sorry I've been away alot lately.

I saw your post and read... and I've had the same thing happen, sometimes people don't notice you're in support, sometimes they are barely stable themselves and are afraid to come support. So I don't think its in any way aimed at you but just something that happens in chat naturally. I think it's great that you support others, but please don't feel bad for asking for help when you need it.

DOLL,

Thanks to all that read this or posted to it,

I wrote a lot and not really sure what to say. I am not looking for support all the time, just every once and a while. I feel like I am expected to support and not recieve.
I understand that sometimes people aren't able to support because they are not stable themselves. I really do understand this.
I am just feeling like I am grabbing to find something to hold onto and there is nothing there anymore.

Maybe I was wrong to post, I just finally snapped and said if I can't get support one way I would try another.

I don't know where to go or anything. I just feel lost and feel like I have nothing to hold on to anymore. I am scared, alone, and lost.

Thanks for reading.

Porcelain Doll,

Finding the right support is not always easy.

If you'd like try PMing me, and I'll see if I can support you.

EJ

YOU WERE 'RIGHT' TO POST ---------

It's important to express, rather than hold it in.

Doll, we're all here for different things - But the Same .....

To be around people who know, who understand, to share, vent, get suggestions...

and most of all JUST TO BE LOVED

Just wanted to say you're never wrong to post

(((((((((((((((( doll ))))))))))))))))))

Not wrong at all to post