[Wants2Fly]

Hello All --

It is 4:30, and I am still in my jammies. Since I took over my finances from my mother and have to face my woeful financial situation, my stomach is acting up. I had bouts of cramps, etc., til 4 a.m. I try not to take too many pills to counteract this, so I waited until 2 a.m., and then it took another 2 hours for it all to settle down and me to get more than an hour sleep between bouts.

I made myself get up before 10 a.m., because I think that getting in a sleep-all-day, up-all-night schedule makes things worse. But I was pretty much out of electrolytes, woozy, and weak. I have a slight fever.

The woman who sold me the apartment chose to show up at 1 p.m. -- unannounced -- dressed to the teeth, to discuss a dispute we are having about damage she did to the unit during a week rent-back.

I was a little rude to her. She said, "Can I come in" and I said, "Why?" She and her real estate agent pushed me around a lot during the deal, and I didn't feel like having her in if she was going to get all assertive on me. Plus, there I am in my jams and old robe that has places the puppy chewed in it.

And then there are still the boxes and unpacking. So much stuff and no place to stash it all. Not even any closets to hide the crap in. I felt like the Bevelry Hillbillies.

As it turned out, she was most charming, and things are settled. But I still feel like a complete frump. This woman is 10 or more years older than I am, and I looked like granny and she looked like Ann-Margret.

Why should I feel guilty about being sick today? It's not like a sit around all day every day. On the other hand, it's not like I'm a whirlwind or productivity, either, at my best. And why should I care about her opinion?

Another thing I may be weird about -- workmen were outside in a cherry picker repairing damage from last year's hurricane season. The livingroom has a huge sliding door onto the patio. Even though it was the middle of the afternoon, I shut the vertical blinds. I felt uncomfortable being in my LR, in my robe, in the middle of the PM, watching TV instead of being productive. It's not like they were looking in here or anything -- they were busy. But I felt uncomfortable.

Is it weird that I made an issue of inviting that woman in, and then shut my blinds so the workmen couldn't peer in?

[vacantangel]

Whose life are you talking about, yours or mine? If anybody says it's weird, then they're saying about me too. I'm not too functional myself. I'll spare everybody the details.

Don't be so hard on yourself. You didn't sleep well last night, barely at all. It's normal to go through what you are today.

(((((((( wants2 ))))))))))

[nothemama8]

Wants2 your feeling sick, she imposed on you, the workmen would make me nervous too, no dear your not wierd, you look just fine to me
Angie

[nothemama8]

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Dear one.......when my daughter and i lived on the ranch and were fighting our personal demons..get this...a friend helped me build a privacy fence so that we COULD stay in our jammies all day! don't you worry one bit about being in those pjs and watching t.v. today. and try to get some gatorade in you to build up your electrolyes..you can get seriously dehydrated like that.......i'll talk to you later........love you, pat

[dayzee9]

((((((Wants2Fly)))))))))

Sounds like you're deeply ((whether you can consciously acknowledge to yourself right now or not)) under a GREAT deal of stress!! Sounds like all the classic signs/symptoms! IE: Sleep-all-daay-; up-all-night; not
getting dressed; being short-tempered; banging yourself for the place not looking like "House Beautiful"
and the guys outside? Heck! I wouldn't want to be putting on a bad showing for the workers, either. You have the right to close the blinds & go about your business! IE: You're NOT losing it!

Take things slow girl, breathe, eat properly & catch some when you need to! There's absolutely nothing wrong w/ "blanket days!" Be good to yourself!

((((((((((((((((((HUGS! if allowed...DAYZEE))))))))))))))))

i'll just tell you one more thing that we did on the ranch...we hid...when my family arrived unannounced, coiffed, oiled, polished and glam.....we bleeping hid, didn't answer door...........so i'm proud that you closed the verticals.....that's way classier than crouching behind a bed...................

[jmo531]

(((((((WTF))))))

I dont think it was weird at all. Dont beat yourself up about it. And as far as unannounced guest, nothing drives me battier then that. All is OK.

[Wants2Fly]

Whew! I feel sooooooo much better after reading these replies!!!

I made some totally organic chicken soup with rice and a few cut up veggies, and it settled my stomach a lot. I've been drinking water and a bit of apple juice all day, and that's helping, too.

Thank you, all who replied.