not well

Its been a while since I posted. I guess that is good. But today has been a bad day. All day long I've been the butt of every joke. And to be perfectly honest it hurts. Don't get me wrong I enjoy a good joke like anyone else. But not at someone elses suspense. It hurts. I know I'm not the most pretty, smartest, funny, thinnest person. I know that. Trust me I know. No one has to tell me. I could give you a thousand things wrong with me. People say its just a joke. I'm just kidding but it hurts. I don't think its funny. I don't think its a good joke. I don't think its funny. I feel like every time I get up on my feet and finally get some what secure someone comes along and knocks me down. I wish so many things. Sometimes I wish I could fake my death and go to the funeral in disguise to see who acttually cared. WHo cared enough to show up. Who cried for me. Who said something nice about me. I'm so sad and hurt. Why would someone say something hurtful about someone they claimed to love. I feel like I have this sign on my back that says "treat me like crap. Its okay, really go ahead be mean to me". Sometimes I want to go and stand in front of a 360 degree mirror to see if there is a sign on me somewhere. I feel so alone.

(((((maymie)))))
So sorry you are feeling sad, try not to let other people hurt you, they are not worth it.
Hope you soon feel better

((((((maymie)))))) Very sorry that this has happend to you. I feel some people just can't feel good about themselves unless they put other people down. They are the people who are truly sick.

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People can be terribly cruel, and they're not worth the time or energy it takes to worry about them. If they're so insecure that they have to point out others' flaws, then they are pathetic on top of mean. Maybe you can tell them that you don't find their brand of humour funny, and if it doesn't stop, is there some way you can stay away from them more/completely? You don't deserve to be the butt of anyone's jokes, and if they can't see that then they are not worthy of your company. I'm glad you posted, and remember you can come here, to a place where you'll never be made fun of, whenever you need to.

((((maymie))))

Sorry that happened to you and that you feel so badly. No you are not wearing a sign that says for anyone to treat you badly and no one has a right to do so. They are mean and the sick ones. You do deserve to be treated with respect.

Sometimes people say things to make themselves feel as though they are ridding themselves of how they are feeling. It is not right at all, but they feel it is a way to make themselves feel better. I am sorry they seem to feel it is okay to make you the blunt end of their jokes.

You say you know you are not the most pretty, smart, funny, or thinnest person. But you are you and that makes you beautiful. It does not matter what they think. I am sorry that you want to fake your death to see what others think or say. I know it is important to feel someone is there and cares.

We do care here and are here for you. You can come here and say what you need to and you will find no judgement. Hurting someone is never right or okay. I am sorry you had to be hurt.

Please keep posting and letting us support you. We do care and are here for you. I send you a gentle hug if that is okay. We are listening.

dps

((((maymie)))) I am sorry you feel so alone and that you are being made fun of. That isn't nice and can really hurt. Please know that you are a special person with special qualities! Take care!

I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time... But we all care about you here

I hope you'll find more supportive friends irl too