[Naturefreak]

Is it just me or do we just feel worse with age.
Is depression making me feel like I've been run over by a
transport truck? I see people in their seventies that look
like they can jump over the moon. I'm not even 50 and I
have trouble jumping over a puddle. What is their secret?
Is it because they are not depressed?
I'm just so sick of feeling so dizzy , tired , stressed , confused,
over and over and over again.
I could see if it was for a month or two . But for so many years.
Sorry for being so negative . Anybody else agree?

[Yoda]

I absolutely agree. I am fifty years old and at my last appt with my psychiatrist I told him I don't want to live into my nineties like my grandmothers and great grandmother did.

My paternal grandmother had more energy at age eighty-five than I do at fifty. I have been through a whole world of hurting in my five decades of life.

I am soooooo tired. I just want to sleep and never wake up.

[Rohag]

Why waste type... DITTO!

Of course, some of my own sluggishness could be a side-effect of several of the meds I take. Unfortunately, I have no sure way of teasing apart what effects are due to which meds or to which illnesses or to what combination thereof.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((Babysteps09))))

I can hear what you are saying and I can understand. I often wonder how long or if it will ever go away. I too am not even 50, but I feel like this will last forever at times. I find myself very tired, stressed, and very often shut down. I try to protect others from my depression. I paint on masks but they at times become so heavy that I cannot hold them up. It makes me want to hide away so others do not have to see me.

I know this can get better if I keep working but it feels I have been working forever and at times it just gets worse. But I have not given up yet. I want to at times and I just do not want to be here at all. But, then I worry about who I might hurt and feel guilty because I do not want to hurt anyone. But I know how it feels to want to go away and never wake up.

So yes, I do understand and feel so much the same. But we are survivors and we are worth fighting the depression. I hope you know that you are important and worth fighting the feelings depression leaves. We are here for you and do care. Hang in there and keep posting. It does help to get out what you feel.

dps

[keepinghopeful]

I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. It really can be such a struggle to even get out of bed each day, let alone have a ton of energy. Feeling like that really saddens and irks me too.

I am not even 40 years old, and some days I feel like I can't get going and I don't want to get out of bed. It's a battle, that's for sure.

I have two children, and I have to take care of them, my dh, our furrbabies, and all of the household stuff. Sometimes all of that can make me feel even more overwhelmed, and most of the time it's what gets me out of bed.

I long for the days that I had more energy. I want to do so much, most days, and it can be very frustrating not to accomplish all that I want to do...all because of the many things that I deal with due to depression, including the lack of energy.

[amaryllis]

Me too, me too~
I am 54, and while I know part of this is menopause, and part is depression, I was just thinking yesterday that I am feeling so overwhelmed with all I "have" to do between working, housework etc. and that I used to be able to do so much more without even feeling tired. But now it is a struggle all day, starting from getting up in the morning.

Be hugged,
Christine Amaryllis

[thinker22]

Some days, I want to go to sleep and not wake up either. I have to force myself to find reasons to go on and I'm only 30. The future seems bleak and endless.

Depression is gnawing, incessant, dull pain; turns my brain viscous, my body to wet cement, my eyes vacuous. Nothing matters, nothing ever did, life is pointless. (this is what depression makes me feel like)

I'm hoping my meds will finally improve my severe depression and keep me from the crippling mood swings. Right now, not much luck on that front.

I'm also sorry if this is depressing. I just answered honestly.

It has to get better. There's no where to go but up. Now put down that shovel.

[Astraea]

I'm 23, but I'm having the same kinda problem. I think it's because the depression was easier to manage back when I was 14, when my parents took care of me (even if they weren't very nice) but now since I'm out in the "real world" and have a job and I'm finishing college, it complicates things for me. Sometimes I feel like I'm still 14 mentally and I never grew up enough to function on my own that well. I worry what I will be like when I get older and have children...I don't want my kids to suffer like I did for so many years, and I want to be able to give them the world. Right now it's hard enough to get up and go to work. :/

[lynn P.]

Hi,
yes babysteps the human body can feel worse as we age. What can you do about it?
Exercise is the #1 way to hold back aging - it you don't 'use it' - you 'lose it' - guaranteed. I joined this site in March 09 and because I liked it SO much, I slacked off and stopped exercising. I usually power walk, bike and also lift weights(even though I'm a woman). Well I noticed that I have lost at least 50% of my strength and energy. When my computer broke down for 4 days I was feeling edgy and this was a RED FLAG that I may be slightly addicted. So I started exercising agian and so should you. Discipline yourself and say - you can't go on the computer until you go for a forty min. walk.
Once you reach the age of 30 we start to lose muscle and bone weight. Please start exercising because this will make you feel better.

[depressedalaskan]

sick

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by depressedalaskan

sick

[Amazonmom]

When I was younger, I had more hope that I could still make something of myself. The longer depression goes on, the more I realize it's pretty hopeless.

I think depression has aged me beyond my years!

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by Amazonmom

When I was younger, I had more hope that I could still make something of myself. The longer depression goes on, the more I realize it's pretty hopeless.

I think depression has aged me beyond my years!

(((amazonmom)))

[thinker22]

Originally Posted by Amazonmom

When I was younger, I had more hope that I could still make something of myself. The longer depression goes on, the more I realize it's pretty hopeless.

I think depression has aged me beyond my years!

Me too. I've always felt like I was about 80, even when I was 7 years old. Depression had already tied me up and tried to bury me. I first noticed the pure white hairs on my head when I was 18. Now, about 1/4 of them are that. My face hasn't aged as fast, but my body seems to be failing me. It wants to give up and I can't offer it any hope for the future. Fulfilling my dreams may still be possible, but only if I actually act: do something insane during mania to get me there. In depression, I'm crippled. Brain is in a fog, body achy, moving slowly, heart is lead. I'm totally useless. And the only one who seems to care (besides all the kind souls on this site) is my partner who has to deal with me day in and day out. I wish I could be a better person, a stronger person, a chemically balanced person, but I keep failing, over and over again. And that makes me feel worse.

[justfloating]

I'm only 20, but my depression makes me feel like I'm 100 years old. Sometimes I can hardly move from my bed to a chair and back again, and when the depression is really bad, I shuffle more than I walk. My whole body feels heavy and my thoughts get slowed down, and all I want to do is sleep. I lose all sense of my youth and of my future, and I feel like I'm just waiting to die. It's really scary.

I dont want to make it to 60 let alone 31.

[thunderbear]

Crazy out of place weird differant scared

[Naturefreak]

It feels pretty much the same today.
Where is that light we are supposed to see?
It's gotta be there . Another day gone
but not totally wasted as I get to be with my
friends at PC. Keep on pluggin" away everyone.

[keepinghopeful]

((((((((((((((((Babysteps09)))))))))))))))

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( babysteps ))))))))))))))))))))

.... like i want to hibernate.....

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

((((((((((((((((( babysteps ))))))))))))))))))))

.... sick and tired .....

(((fuzzybear)))

[darkpurplesecrets]

(((((babysteps09)))))

Just to keep plugging along is really something. Everyday we make it is another day that we defeat that thing called depression. I know it is hard but everyday we make it we can laugh in the face of depression.

I know it is not easy and each step sometimes feels like we are walking in quicksand. But we are still walking. Still reaching as we come here and post and tell what we are feeling.

Each time we succeed, we are doing what we need to do to take care of ourselves. And even though it is hard----we are doing it. I still feel like everyday is a challenge to even get out of bed. To even get dressed. But I do.

Coming here and writing is another way to let out what you are feeling. Sometimes words are all we have to let someone know we are here and what we are feeling. Sometimes it seems I sit down to write and I think there are no words to say----but before long I look and the screen is filled and I wonder if it makes any sense.

The masks are heavy and I grow weary at times trying to carry it or even paint it on----but I do. At the end of the day, the mask falls off and I feel such a relief as I can just be who I am. No hiding, no faking.

Depression makes it difficult sometimes to say what you need to say. To feel you even warrent anyones listening. But you are worth it and what you have to say is important.

Know that we are here for you and that we are your friends. We do care. Sending you gentle hugs.

dps