[BlackTears]

Life some people live such a full and happy life.. Some people couldnt ask for more.. Me, life is a cold miserable place at least for me it is...When I was younger I use to go to church every sunday, would walk by myself get myself up to go (my family was never into church). I can remember my stepfather when he was being cruel wouldn"t allow me to go as punnishment for some stupid reason. However it use to devestate me.. Now that im older I no longer have the faith the strong with out a doubt faith the way I use to. I question god and I question why things happen the way they do.. Almighty powerful god who can dp amd heal anything and anyone just believe!!! Well what happen tp me? Did I fall in the cracks, did he turn his back on me, why is it that i have gone through hell my entire life?? What did I do so wrong..I oftem lay awake at night asking these things over and over cause I dont get it!!!!! Am I going to be damaged for the rest of my life?? Was I always damaged goods so to speak since my birth?? I dont understand how does he choose whos going to be loved protected and whos going to live a disfunctional life for the rest of their life..Whos going to have everything handed to them and whos going to half to struggel and have nothing and deal with such unthinkable things?/ How does he decide whos going to always have their children and who has to deal with something horrible happening to their child????? My faith sadly is changing more and more everyday...Just dont know anymore..

[Pomegranate]

(((((Blacktears))))) Those are some very good questions to be asking yourself. We all have to go on our own spiritual journey and find our own answers for the tough questions.

Please keep seeking healing for yourself. You deserve it.

[idontknow13]

(((((Blacktears)))))
I really dont have the answer to your questions but You certainly are not damaged goods and I am sorry you feel so bad and I hope you feel better soon

[ExiExi]

(((((((((BlackTears)))))))))

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((( BlackTears ))))))))))))))))))
no one here is damaged goods, its one of many unhelpful labels we sometimes call ourselves (or others call us)
Wishing you healing and everything that's good because you deserve it

[Naturefreak]

(((BlackTears)))

So sorry you are suffering this way

[susan888]

(((((BlackTears)))))

I have many of the same questions that you do....understand what you are going through.....

[*freak*]

I don't have any answers to your questions... But I can tell you that questioning things is normal, it's our nature to do so.

I wish you to find inner peace one day very very soon.
Take care

[Rohag]

BlackTears, your situation saddens and moves me. I've been mulling over what you wrote, but I struggle with what to share from my own observations and experience, desiring to offer only comforting, helpful words. Pomegranate is correct: “We all have to go on our own spiritual journey and find our own answers for the tough questions.”

“Loss of faith,” “loss of the feeling or sense of faith,” and the “transformation/maturing of faith” are three distinct phenomena. In your case, one or more of those is intertwined with depression, a complex depression involving both the external and internal. In my opinion, that would perplex anyone.

Try, therefore, to acknowledge your confusion and not pressure yourself to unravel it by any artificial deadline. You, heart and mind, are precious and deserve to walk your path at your own pace.

[Berries]

(((((((((((BlackTears))))))))))))


You are not damaged goods.

Look at your kids. They are a part of you and they are NOT damaged goods. They are beautiful, am I right? so then, you must be too.