[dolphinmkr44]

Why does having a mental illness have be so hard and why do people shun us because we are not "NORMAL" in their eyes. . I feel I have completly drained my support people IRL. I feel I have no one. I am the one to blame according to everyone-too needy. I just want some comfort. I just want someone to be there and give me a hug and listen, and tell me it's going to be okay. My friends have left me, my husband, well...he is a complete a.. He doesn't care about anyone or anything but himself.

I'm ready to stop going to see my T and pdoc. If I don't go and see them anymore then they won't be responsible if anything happends to me. It will be easier on that that way. But...I love my T...he is probably the only good I have, but I am sure he will turn on me too.

I was thinking of asking him what he thinks about me personally. Does he see me a digusting, used up, too needy of a person.

I guess that is just what I am. No good. A bad egg that needs to be thrown away.

[Naturefreak]

(((dolphinmkr44)))

No words ..........Just Hugs
Hope you are feeling better soon. Take care

[turquoisesea]

I hate how some people react to "the diagnosis"

Don't stop with the T and Pdoc.
reach out for friends who won't care. And for others, unfortuantely with some I believe sometimes we have to be discreet :/

[googley]

I know how you feel.

[depressedalaskan]

(((((dolphinmkr44))))) Sorry that you are feeling so down. I to go through these same thoughts. My advise is to copy this post and take it to your doctor, let them read it. I know that it can be hard to do but it is how you feel and your doctor will be able to see what you see. It sucks having this illness and I know that it is hard to fight. But your best weapon is letting your doctor know your true feelings or how your depression effects how you feel. Take care and good luck with your battle against depression. Hugs for your day...

[buttermilkandcornbr]

I would not give up...I can't say anything spirtual on here but you are important...you have a purpose...if you could volunteer...get out...see the beauty in life...there is a reason for you being here...you are here for me...because I need to know that I am not alone....

[Fuzzybear]

[Puffyprue]

(((Dolphin))))))))

[justfloating]

((((((((((((((dolphinmkr)))))))))))))))


Please don't give up. You are NOT a disgusting person. You are NOT a bad egg. You are SICK, and there is nothing shameful or weak about that. And as a sick person, the absolute worst thing you could do right now is give up your doctor and T. They're the only ones who have the know-how to help you beat this thing.

I know it's hard, but try not to listen to the lies your depression is telling you. If your support networks IRL are dwindling, maybe it's time to find some new ones? There are support groups out there specifically for people with depression, maybe you could ask your doctor or T if they know of any in your area? No one there will tell you that you're "too needy" because they all understand exactly where you're coming from and what you need. Sending lots of hugs.