[lonelyperson92]

Those are the words to describe my life right now.

I'm 16 years old, the age where sweetest moment of your teenage life tends to happen : boyfriends, best friends sleepover, food fights, and other special occasions (prom, graduation).

Except I never had any of those. I'm a nerd, bookworm and a geek. The one that wears a pair of glass, tied up hair, make up free face and holding an AP calculus book.

I have been lonely, feeling that no one could understands me, even my parents. I'm jealous whenever other girls hang along with each other during lunch time while I have to hurried to the library to hide my shame.

I'm tired of being abandoned, blending with people whom I only knew their name, their grade, while they never knew my name.

I hate those people on Facebook who have more than 300 friends, and people write on their wall everyday. While I have none.

No phone calls, no communication, no texting. I'm an invisible person who knows a little bit about everyone but no one knows anything about me. I try my best to be benevolent to them but they were never there when I need help.

I'm Sad, Lonely, and Lost.
lonelyperson92

[idontknow13]

(((((((lonelyperson)))))
I am so sorry you feel like this. Here you will find a lot of support, people who care! I hope you feel better soon

[Naturefreak]

(((lonelyperson)))
Welcome to PC. I hope we can help you here . I know this site
and the people involved in it have helped me alot.
They listen and understand what we are going through .
You are not alone here and hopefully we can bring a much needed
smile to your face . I quit Facebook myself , all I was getting
mostly was silly pokes and drinks . I don't even drink , and if I
did , I'm sure they wouldn't quench my thirst anyways.
I hope you decide to stick around for awhile.
There are alot of kind caring people here

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Sad, Lost, and Lonely -- I was you, a number of decades ago. It's a hard place to be.

I have gone through periods of depression and relative contentment, even occasional joy, all my life.

First, not all of us blossom in our teens. One of my HS sociology teachers, fresh out of college, used to say: People are telling you this is the best time of your life; it's not. They're wrong. But things will get better.

The film director John Waters once told me, "I don't trust anyone who peeks in high school." It's sad when one meets such a person as an adult, in his 50s and still talking about the big game when he scored three touchdowns against XXX High School. Or talking about when she was Promo Queen.

Next, let's look at what's involved in having 300 friends. It sounds exhausting to me. I used to envy people who had a great many friends. I came to realize that it takes a lot out of me to tend relationships with a few (one to three) friends and close family. I am not suited for the extrovert lifestyle. So consider whether 300 friends is something you genuinely would like.

A lot of us who are geeks, misfits, and outcasts bond with people who are more like us -- more creative, more independent of spirit, smarter - as we get out in the big world. Check out biographies of creative people, such as Truman Capote, and you will find any number of geeks who turned out to have grand adult lives.

Even when we craft satisfying adult lives, we who suffer from depression -- and gosh, it truly is suffering, isn't it? -- will continue to experience these bouts of darkness.

Are you working with a therapist who perhaps can prescribe a medication or one with whom you can talk honestly about this?

Take heart, Lonely Person. Many of us here understand your pain. I hope you will soon be on the other side of this dark tunnel.