[Tonny]

Sometimes I don’t know where to turn. I have been treated for depression and other such things several times throughout my life. I have also had some bad docs that ‘diagnosed’ me with the disorder of the day, so my trust with them is not that strong. I know I need to go see someone, hopefully be correctly diagnosed, and get the appropriate treatment I need, but don’t know where to go.

Since all the other times I have been through this, I needed meds and therapy helped, I figured to find a psychiatrist to get the diagnosis and meds then a T for the talk time. Well, I looked up my insurance to find who they cover. The first 2 I called the numbers are disconnected, the next has a waiting list and won’t see anyone for at least 3 months. NOT going to help my quasi-crisis now. Definitely not helping my depression and feelings of being worthless. The others are all tied to a hospital and don’t seem to take outside patients.

I just cannot seem to get my brain to be quiet, make a decision on what to do now, or feel like there is hope. Everyone who knows me just sees the facade I portray and expect me to be the one who can do it all and with a smile on my face. Pretty scary that I actually feel the exact opposite.

I guess I just needed to be able to let out these feelings of frustration so they don’t add to everything else that is going on.

[BlueMoon6]

Hi Tonny. That sounds awful. Is there any way you can pay for some treatment somewhere until you can get the 3 month appointment? The 3 months can go very fast and since you really need help now maybe you can see someone and they may even give you a break money-wise so you wont need the 3 month appt? I have been in similar insurance predicaments and if you need help now it would be terrible to wait it out or do nothing at all. Make a lot of calls- there has got to be someone who will respond to you. Please don't wait.
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[idontknow13]

(((((Tonny))))))
I hope you get the help you need as soon as possible but in the meantime you can come and share with us anytime, you wll find a lot of understanding and caring people on this site

[marvin_pa]

Being able to keep up that external facade must be one of the special talents that comes along with the depression, but it's so very exhausting to keep it going - letting out the feelings is a good course of immediate action, even if it's merely writing down some of the frustrations here.

I hate dealing with insurance companies, but I'd be tempted to call them & let them know that those 2 numbers appear to be disconnected - they should at least be able to give you an updated list with updated/alternate numbers. You could also check with them whether the ones connected to the hospital will really only take outside patients.

[Tonny]

Thanks, both of you. I am trying to stay focused and keep trying to see someone. It gets difficult to make certain phone calls during work, so as to not be overheard.

I need to hold myself to finding someone since time keeps passing and the depression and such is still there.

Maybe by sharing this frustration, I can move past it and find someone to see.

[turquoisesea]

((((((((((((((((((Tonny))))))))))))))))))))))

It can be so frustrating to find the help you need... but I've found posting here can really help. Keep trying

[FeelingHopeful]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

((((((((((((((((((Tonny))))))))))))))))))))))

It can be so frustrating to find the help you need... but I've found posting here can really help. Keep trying

Keep trying Tonny, You deserve to get all the help you need. Dont give up.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Tonny

Sometimes I don’t know where to turn. I have been treated for depression and other such things several times throughout my life. I have also had some bad docs that ‘diagnosed’ me with the disorder of the day, so my trust with them is not that strong. I know I need to go see someone, hopefully be correctly diagnosed, and get the appropriate treatment I need, but don’t know where to go.

Since all the other times I have been through this, I needed meds and therapy helped, I figured to find a psychiatrist to get the diagnosis and meds then a T for the talk time. Well, I looked up my insurance to find who they cover. The first 2 I called the numbers are disconnected, the next has a waiting list and won’t see anyone for at least 3 months. NOT going to help my quasi-crisis now. Definitely not helping my depression and feelings of being worthless. The others are all tied to a hospital and don’t seem to take outside patients.

I just cannot seem to get my brain to be quiet, make a decision on what to do now, or feel like there is hope. Everyone who knows me just sees the facade I portray and expect me to be the one who can do it all and with a smile on my face. Pretty scary that I actually feel the exact opposite.

I guess I just needed to be able to let out these feelings of frustration so they don’t add to everything else that is going on.

You are doing all the right things. Keep plugging along. Hugs for your day.

[*freak*]

Hang in there and remember you can always post here if it helps
Take care

[Tonny]

Thanks for all the support. I actually finally got an appointment in 2 weeks. It was if as soon as I shared the frustration, it moved out of the way and I was able to find a doctor to see. We will see how it goes, but things are looking positive.