[vacantangel]

My heart won't stop bleeding and the tears never ending.

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((((((ANGELGIRL)))))))))))))))

Sweetie, I am so sorry. What is going on? Anything I can help you with? Please PM if you need. I am always available for you. You are a dear friend and I always wish inner peace for you. Your a wonderful girl AG. Take care of yourself.

[(JD)]

((((hugs))))

[TgrsPurr]

AG, just keep coming back here where you are loved, cherished and important. Many, many ppl at PC are here for you, want to be here for you and know and understand what your feeling. We've all been there. Don't be so easily influeced by ppl who are not being supportive. Fall back on those that are. Try not to generalize in terms of all or nothing, always and never. These kinds of statements are self defeating and only lead to discouragement and further mental and emotional anguish. Your t is right that you need to try as hard as you can to control the depth of your depression, this is possible and you CAN do it. I am always here to help you. You don't have to do it alone, but like the old adage says, you can lead a horse to water but you can't make him drink. Please AG, control your environment, be aware of your thoughts, don't isolate and keep coming back here for the support and encouragement and love that is waiting here for you.
TgrsPurr. xo

(((((((angelgirl)))))))))

((((((((((((((((((((AG)))))))))))))))))))))

Sweet Angel, remember those here who love you. I'm at the top of that list... or at least I'd BETTER be Be safe sweetie.

Ry

[sherry13]

(((((((((((angel)))))))))
sending you lots of hope and support..
hope your feeling better....
thinking of you ....sherry

[Jinsi]

Just sitting down quietly beside you, listening and offering support....

[vacantangel]

I don't understand. One minute I'm being told to lean on others to support me, the next I'm being told I'm co-dependant and have to learn to rely on myself. I'm so confused.

[TgrsPurr]

The key AG is finding the balance in those two things. Life is not black and white. There are no absolute answers. Life is the process of self-discovery, self-improvement and inner reflection. During those times you're being self-sufficient and working to lift yourself up, issues may arise that are difficult to reconcile, so you get feedback here about that specific issue. You can then rely on the experience of others. Yes, it's a juggling act, but it's one we all must face. When we put our head down on the pillow at the end of the day we need to feel we've progressed in some way. Sometimes progression is figuring things out on our own and sometimes progression is asking for help.
Hope this clarifies what I was trying to say.
Your Friend, TgrsPurr. xoxo

[vacantangel]

Geez, I thought that's what I was doing in the other forum when I got shot down. Getting more confused by the minute.

[TgrsPurr]

AG, see my post in Relationships and Communication under Forgiveness and Closure.

AG, please just try to keep an open mind that we are here trying to help you. When you make a post I always respond, why do you think that is? Because I care. Please don't push me away because we disagree on something. That's all a part of human relationships.
TgrsPurr. xo

[vacantangel]

I saw your reply to me. I'm not sure how to reply. I know you care, I never said you didn't. I asked for help in how others have found closure to relationships ending, instead what I got was criticized for even asking in the first place and not figuring things out on my own and also picked apart for my lack of communication skills and told I'm an attention seeker. I don't know how to talk with anybody anymore. Others here can ask for help but I can't? I'm confused. Like I said there, damned if I do, damned if I don't.

[oksomaybeimnuts]

(((AngelGirl)))

[TgrsPurr]

AG, you are choosing to completely misinterpret everything I've said. Your focusing on negatives that don't even exist. I offered support, advice, love, compassion. I responded clearly and consicely. I'm not sure what it is you think I've said that is so terrible or unsupportive. You're becoming defensive over a percieved insult on my part. And you still haven't answered my question. What are you looking for? And how did I not provide it?

I'm not being antagonistic, but you're taking your pent up feelings out on me and I can't for the life of me figure out why. I've offered you nothing but love, encouragement and support. I think your mind is playing tricks on you. I've offered sound advice on how to fight your demons and you've not applied a single bit of it. What am I suppose to think? I feel as though you've made it impossible to communicate with you. If that's what you want, I'll respect that. But I'll always continue to support you from the sidelines. Perhaps you could go back and reread what I wrote with a more open mind to what I'm actually saying. I have been and continue to be here for you. Despite your negtative response to my heartfelt posts, I still continue. What does that tell you?
TgrsPurr. xo

[vacantangel]

Thanks Jen. You're a dear friend to me too. I know you're always there for me and I thank you for that. I hope you know I'm also always here for you.

(((((((((((((((((( Jen ))))))))))))))))

[vacantangel]

Sky, thanks for the hugs. Much appreciated.

(((((((((((((((( sky ))))))))))))))))

[vacantangel]

esthersvirtue thanks for the hugs. very appreciated.

(((((((((((((((( esthersvirtue ))))))))))))))))

[vacantangel]

Sweet, sweet Ry, Yes, I know you love me and you're at the top of my list always.

((((((((((((((((((( Ry )))))))))))))))))

[vacantangel]

Sherry, thanks for thinking of me and sending me lots of hope and support but in this case all hope is forever lost. Someday, I'll feel better, I hope. I wish that day would hurry up and get here.

(((((((((((((((((((( Sherry ))))))))))))))) I hope you're feeling better soon too.

[vacantangel]

Jinsi, thank you, who could ever ask for more than that.

((((((((((((( Jinsi )))))))))))))))))

[vacantangel]

Thanks for the hugs and so much more oksomaybeimnuts. I'm sorry we didn't connect last night. I waited for your last reply but obviously not long enough. I apologize. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I didn't intend to and I really appreciate the support you were extending to me.

((((((((((((((((((( oksomaybeimnuts)))))))))))))))))))

[TgrsPurr]

AG, I want you to know that I tried to send you a PM making a more personal apology to you, but your PM is disabled. Basically I wanted you to know that I was wrong for misinterpreting your intention in the "Forgiveness/Closure" thread. I adore you and only want the best for you. In a place such as this it's easy to be misunderstood, I can see how that happended in rereading my posts to you. I just wish you could've seen into my heart. You hold a special place in the depths of my heart and that is why I try so hard to get you to see my voice of reason. I think that all in all we handled that whole situation rather well, kudos for both of us. All is well in the world again.
TgrsPurrrrrrr. xo

[vacantangel]

Tgrspurr, we talked in the other forum. I know you were offering your support. I misinterpreted some of it, I'm hurt, I'm feeling very raw right now. I still don't know who I am. I feel lost. I'm sorry for everything that happened but I'm also glad that you're still my friend in spite of it all. That speaks volumes about you.

((((((((((((((((((( TgrsPurr))))))))))))))))))

[TgrsPurr]

I'm so sorry for hurting you. I wish so desperately you could've heard how it was in my head and in my heart. I will make a a conscious effort to not repeat that mistake again. I might screw up sometimes, the mania has a way of taking hold of me and ruling my thoughts and emotions. I'm working on that diligently.

I want to take take this opportunity to point out that you and I are living out my "Forgiveness" thread. We are to be commended. I certainly commend you. It's fascinating to me how God provides the opportunities to play out the very things we bring out into the light. We continued to communicate, we took responsibility for our part in it and we still have a relationship through our forgiveness. This was exactly my point. Thank you AG for this opportunity. TgrsPurr. xoxo