[BlackTears]

All I have in my head are visions of what and who I want to be.. I stay up at night and sit in my computer room when everyone is sleeping and sing my heart out!!! Sing songs that make me feel so empowered and I feel good I suck at singing but so meny songs (alternative) that are just how I feel in so meny different ways... Im sure my neighbors here me and laugh cause I suck at singing but its one of the things out so little that make me feel good. Stupid huh???Their not that happiest songs in the world but they describe so meny things in my world.. I escape into a little world of my own same as when I daydream about what I want.. How can we become so depressed that all we see around us is a black hole..I hear a voice trying to pull me to the surface but I just fall deeper and deeper into the darkness eventually I will no longer hear the voice. Waiting fading floating away....

[Rohag]

Thank you - your post painted a vivid picture that made me smile. I could almost hear you singing and feel the happiness. There is far more of authentic courage and wisdom in your singing than you perhaps think.

May that voice not fade. May it grow clearer and louder. May you rise and embrace the voice on the bright surface.

[justfloating]

((((((((blacktears))))))))

I do the same thing! I have to drive half an hour to work every day, and in that time I crank up the radio and sing as loud as I can. It feels especially good at the END of the day, because I don't particularly like my job so I can vent a lot of frustrations -- singing, to me, is one step away from screaming, and it sure feels good!

I frequently make playlists on my mp3 player. Sometimes they're based on my mood, like sad songs or happy songs, or genre, like country or reggae, but a lot of the time what I do is put together lists of songs that I can just sing to. The ones I can belt it out to. The ones that give me a rush to sing. The ones that let me experiment with my voice, that go from quiet to loud and back again ... I find it really helps when I'm feeling low, when everything starts fading into the depression, listening to music and singing along as strongly as I can helps pull me back.

[Pomegranate]

Keep singing! Keep singing! Perhaps the feelings expressed in the songs will help your darkness float away! It's good to know and express your feelings, that's the beginning of change.

[*freak*]

I do something similar too (I listen to metal though, and haven't learnt how to growl yet, so I just whisper the lyrics )

I hope one day all those visions will become reality