[depressedalaskan]

I saw my therapist today - been 2 weeks. He asked me what I have gotten done. I told him nothing. I do nothing. Then I thought for a second - and said "I fight to stay alive everyday, that is what I do, I am a live".

How sad is that? I so suck. But it is true, not sure why I fight but I do. Everyday, not as bad as when this episode of depression started but I still have to fight. What keeps me going I am not sure but I can say that PC and my friends here have helped a lot.

My therapist wants me to go in for ECT's so I will as soon as I can.

hugs to all

[Rohag]

Yes, you are alive, and you've been deeply caring for all the folks here.

[idontknow13]

(((((((depressedalaskan))))))
No words but know that I care

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Yes, you are alive, and you've been deeply caring for all the folks here.

I really do care for everyone here and I understand how we feel. I just wish I could beat these feelings.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by idontknow13

(((((((depressedalaskan))))))
No words but know that I care

Thanks And I care for all who are here at PC.

[Amazonmom]

You've done a lot for me...

I'm sorry the dumb depression won't let you go.

[Tonny]

((((depressedakaskan))))


I wish I had the words to say to make things better. Your words have helped me get through tough days. Sending you hugs.

[ADHD1956]

I appreciate you very much My Alaskan Moose Friend! You're a Wonderful Human Being, Thank YOU!

[Naturefreak]

(((Alaskan)))
You are so good to everyone here , and if what they say about being good to others and you will be rewarded is true , and I believe it is ,
you will be a very happy person again . It may not seem like it now,
but it WILL happen . Keep pluggin' away , and like you have told us all , be proud of your accomplishments , no matter how small
they may seem . Job well done ....
Good luck with the ECT 's
I hope that it works out well for you.
Hugs Babysteps

[depressedalaskan]

Thanks everyone - Yes, getting to do what I have learned is so hard. I can say these things to help others and myself but can't get myself to do them. It is what I have learned but for the life of me, can I do them? - no - dang it anyway.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( alaskan )))))))))))))))))

care and support,
furry paws

[arcanum]

((((((((((Alaskan))))))))))

I had a good day today but i know exactly what you mean a lot of the time. It just seems to beat us, we usually know why and a lot of the time even what we should try and do about it but it just seems to get you so you doubt it all and give up because on the bad days everything good feels unobtainable in the nothingness and uselessness depression makes us think we are.

We are better than that ~ it seems only on the good days we can manage to accept it tho ~ thats why friends and support are so important ~ to help us remember on the bad ones.

Wishing you many many better times ~ you deserve them, especially as you are always here for others, sending out happy juice to brighten our darker days.

Be good to yourself......

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by arcanum

((((((((((Alaskan))))))))))

I had a good day today but i know exactly what you mean a lot of the time. It just seems to beat us, we usually know why and a lot of the time even what we should try and do about it but it just seems to get you so you doubt it all and give up because on the bad days everything good feels unobtainable in the nothingness and uselessness depression makes us think we are.

We are better than that ~ it seems only on the good days we can manage to accept it tho ~ thats why friends and support are so important ~ to help us remember on the bad ones.

Wishing you many many better times ~ you deserve them, especially as you are always here for others, sending out happy juice to brighten our darker days.

Be good to yourself......

Thank you vey much for the reminder. I will have to myself in the ***** and get back to being me. Hus for your day.

[*freak*]

I hope you will feel better very very soon

[lynn09]

Hey, depressedalaskan! Yes, you are alive. Yes, you have to fight. I've been fighting to stay alive and be alive for almost 60 years, now(no wonder I'm tired!). Why do we do it? Because it's worth it. Life - it is the only thing of any true value that any of us possess because without that one precious thing we can have and be nothing; without it there are no options, no hope, no possibilities. I don't know what lies beyond or if we get recycled - all I know is that I am here at this point in time and space and for all I know this is my one and only shot at it, so I will tread water or doggy-paddle or float or swim or whatever it takes to stay here as long as I can to see how it all turns out. If you get too tired, depressedalaskan, there are plenty of folks here, including me, who will gladly toss you a life-preserver and help you keep your head above water. All the pain, the fog, the crushing fatigue, and the paralysis of depression we endure, and even just by enduring we give hope to others that they can endure and hope, as well. Do whatever it takes to be here because you are needed here.

[depressedalaskan]

Originally Posted by lynn09

Hey, depressedalaskan! Yes, you are alive. Yes, you have to fight. I've been fighting to stay alive and be alive for almost 60 years, now(no wonder I'm tired!). Why do we do it? Because it's worth it. Life - it is the only thing of any true value that any of us possess because without that one precious thing we can have and be nothing; without it there are no options, no hope, no possibilities. I don't know what lies beyond or if we get recycled - all I know is that I am here at this point in time and space and for all I know this is my one and only shot at it, so I will tread water or doggy-paddle or float or swim or whatever it takes to stay here as long as I can to see how it all turns out. If you get too tired, depressedalaskan, there are plenty of folks here, including me, who will gladly toss you a life-preserver and help you keep your head above water. All the pain, the fog, the crushing fatigue, and the paralysis of depression we endure, and even just by enduring we give hope to others that they can endure and hope, as well. Do whatever it takes to be here because you are needed here.

Thank you for reminding me. I get so lost in my depression. hugs for your day.

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((depressedalaskan))))

I hear you and I understand. I know it is hard sometimes to even understand where this all comes from. I know where I am right now and I would give anything for this to let up, but I believe I am right where I am suppose to be. And that where I am and feeling all this pain that I am going through----I am learning and growing and slowly moving forward.

I know somedays are so hard my friend. I do understand. But I also know that there are days when you feel so bad but you still come here and give some of the most wonderful and thoughtful support and encouragement to us all. I know that my life and my hard times have been lifted even a little by your words and your being there.

Please do something kind for you today. Know that we love you and are here for you always. We do care and we are hearing you. May you get some relief from it all soon. Hang in there my friend. Hold on tight. I am reaching out to you so grab on and hold on the best you can------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts my friend. Always.

dps

[Yoda]

(((depressedalaskan)))

Keep fighting to stay alive. Any day above the ground is better than a day below the ground.

Hope you will find some joy to help you feel better.