down, down, down...

I feel like someone with a big combat boot kicked me in the gut and left the boot in there. And it feels like someone is sitting on my chest. The weight is keeping me down, down, down…
I don’t know why. I have no idea. So many good things in my life. So many good friends here at PC. A good T. A good mental health clinic. A supportive mom.
I am about to start a volunteer job. It has taken me a whole year to get to the point, to be stable enough to have a volunteer job.
But I am so depressed.
It HURTS.
I want it to go away.
But I feel USELESS in making it go.

Berries
I am so sorry you are hurting so much. You are in my thoughts and I hope you will feel better soon
By the way, you are a beautiful person who always has good words for everyone here, thank you

up, up, up, You have been doing very well. Try not to let depression over rule you. I know what a pain in the **** depression can be. Keep doing what you have been doing. You are awesome, bigs hugs for your day..

This is it, right here: always have good words for everyone here, this is it. My question to this is: why can't we remember what we say to others? This is the hardest part of my depression. I know how I feel and I know how I can try to feel better but depression has my mind block what I say and read out of my head. It so sucks. hugs for all.

Hello, Berries - You say you're about to start a new volunteer job. You know, sometimes change, any kind of change, even a positive one, can trigger a fall. It's like you finally get your bearings more or less where you are at the moment, then the slightest change means you have to rebalance again. And sometimes it isn't about anything at all, it just is. I'm trying to be very careful here because I know I have had a lot more experience with this than you. Try to imagine that all of us here at PC and everyone else who cares about you has you wrapped in their arms. We can't stop the hurting, but we can hold onto you until it passes - and it will pass.

Berries, for what it's worth, I think you're doing great. You're seeing a T, you're taking your meds, you're here to help others, you reach out for help when you need it, you're moving forward with your life, you acknowledge there are good things in it, too... This is great. Not everyone can do all this.

It's normal to be overwhelmed sometimes... it's okay Unpleasant, but okay. I think you're very strong and very brave. I'm really sorry that you're hurting so much right now. But I have faith in you. And I know what you'll do with all this pain and this depression: you'll fight it. And one day... you'll win

Hang in there and lean on us... we're all here for you

((((((( Berries )))))))



Hugs for you. Im sorry you are hurting. You are a good person who has great things to share.

Berries...

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low on words tonight ... keeping you in my thoughts and sending lots of hugs

You are looking after you and that is important. Continue to be kind to yourself. (((Berries)))

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