[marjan]

I feel way down again....I hate it....I was trying hard to stay up and inspired....but it looks like it's difficult to be okay while I'm lonely....
My family were here that's why I felt okay....now, that they left, I'm lonely again....
I can't understand....Is this too much to ask to have somebody in my life?
why doesn't that happen to me? what is wrong with me?
I can't focus on my job and I'm terrified....I really need to do good at my job and keep it....I can't afford being out of job....
People come to my life, but I push them away....I don't know what is wrong with me....or probably, they are not meant to stay in my life for long time...
some stay longer....then I moved...I moved from country to country, then I lost all those beautiful, compassionate friends that I made....I miss them....
hope I can make more quality friends again....hope....
Marjan

[Sabrina]

Marjan, I really understand. I don't have any advice but please know you have our support and love. You will get through this. I know it sounds trite, but somehow, you will get through!

Sending you strengthening thoughts.

[Naturefreak]

(((Marjan)))

[depressedalaskan]

(((((marjan)))) People are everywhere it just takes time to meet the right ones. Good luck. Hugs for your day.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by marjan

People come to my life, but I push them away....I don't know what is wrong with me....
...I moved from country to country, then I lost all those beautiful, compassionate friends that I made....I miss them....

Hi, Marjan! You had and maintained good friendships in one country, but then you moved. Now, in the new country, you find yourself lonely and have trouble developing the kind of friendships you once enjoyed.

Speculation: You crossed a cultural divide and have yet to fully adapt to the new social environment in which you live. Depression may be further complicating what is normally a difficult acculturation process for anyone.

"Culture" is far more than formal language and customs. It runs down to the roots of our experience of reality. Intercultural miscommunication is common in the realm of relationships where the people involved grew up in even slightly different societies.

Anyway, all that is my speculating on the basis of too little information, drawing on the biases of my personal observations and experiences. You DO know how to be and make friends. You simply may need more time to absorb the "thought/emotional styles" of your new environment. Wishing you the best!

[marjan]

thanks everybody for your support....

I know how to make friends, but it looks difficult to get connected and enjoy their company....I feel isolated and not simply belong to them!

This is the third country that I moved into....and I hope I stay here and not move anywhere else anymore....because It's really difficult to adjust....I really didn't think about all the challenges that I might face when I moved here last year!

I made some friends here and there....but I don't have a close friend yet...just can't get connected to these people that I call them friends....

Now, it's long weekend, and I really want to go for a short trip out of the city....but I have no one to go with....then my friends from Canada are calling me and wanting me to be with them....and I know how joyful is being with them, but I can't spend so much money to fly there just for weekend!!!!

Thanks again for your support....It means a lot to me

with love
Marjan

[lindee]