Hurt

Pain is so cruel... I try to explain to my husband how I feel everyday weather we smile to each other one day a week or not. He will never truly understand that what I want is to better him as well as me. He thinks that its just a simple little task to go to my shrink and take a little pill...He has no idea the depth of my pain and no matter how I try to explain it, words never touch the true depth of my pain the pain I feel everyday so deep inside my gut it makes me sick...Im destroying everyone in my family with my moodswings and my sullen self. This pain has no simple fix its something I believe I can overcome and become such a stronger person but its something I cant do in this relationship....Why cant he see that im trying to do what I believe to be whats best for all of us....

((((BlackTears)))) ...sorry I have no advise but standing beside you, hun

(((Blacktears)))
It is so true that no one will ever know the true pain we feel deep down inside . Don't blame yourself for destroying everyone in your family . It's not your fault . You mission is NOT to destroy anybody. Depression is to blame for your moodswings , not you .
Take Care Hugs

I'm sorry you're having such a struggle (((((BlackTears))))). It's difficult for others to understand what it's like inside depression. Just focus on doing what you have to do to get better - hopefully others will catch up along the way.

I said this in a post a week or so ago. We need to teach others about depression. They will never understand how we feel as they don't live it. I don't know how to help other than getting some information on depression and sharing it with your husband. I see that you already talked to him about it but untill he truly understands how depressed people feel he will not see it in you. I wish you luck and happiness. Hugs for your day.