[twinmommy38]

I have to work today.
I needed to sleep but I have so much on my mind. I went to bed around 9:30 last night. Slept for a while. Laid awake from 1:30 to 3:30, trying to force myself to go back to sleep. Could not and am wide awake. I know I will be tired later.

I am concerned about somethings at work.
Concerned about all the homework for school. There is so much to do and not enough time. I am trying NOT to procratenate yet, for my own sanity, I have tried not to do too much in one day.

I have found out that I do not like annotated bibliographies one bit.
15 sources to annotate. A prospectus. A response paper to a book reading assignment. Also,

All of the paperwork for work (state require a lot). I can not afford to sleep. Time is becoming valuable.

Hard decision I had to make at work about a family.
Will I be in trouble? I just did what I had to to cover myself.
Wrong decision?

I hate making decisions...especially like these.
What if I am wrong? What if people are mad or irritated at me?

Why do I care?
Too many people to see today.

[twinmommy38]

Last week, I felt better than today.

I am worried about things..decisions I made last week at work.
Worried about school work.
Worried about getting stuf done at work and for work.
Worried no one likes me.
Worried something terrible will happen (do not know what really).

Aware of cleching my jaws tightly.

I skipped one day of meds this weekend because I was experiancing vertigo so bad Saturday morning. So I did not take it Saturday night.
Took it last night.

I really do not like this at all.

What is it like to be confident, fun and sure of youself?
What is it like to not worry about what other think?
What is it like to like who you are?
What is it like to be sure of oneself and be okay with critisum?
What is it like to be sure of yourself and the decisions you make?

Why do I worry all the time?

I must get ready for work now and I do not want to do that either...dreading it.
Do not want to go.

[lonegael]

Hear you. It's a horrible feeling when the thought run away from you. somethings help me:
I ask myself what I can do about what worries me RIGHT NOW. If there isn't anything, cross off the list. If there is, do it and let it go
I ask myself if the worry is coming from an actual source outside, or is it a "ghost", coming from me and whatever illness I have. If it is a ghost, the worry goes off the list.
I remind myself that a thought is just a thought. Because I worry that soemthing might happen does not mean it will, and until it does, it doesn't exist. A though looks real because we attach feelings to it and get worked up.¨
If I try to banish thoughts from my mind, I just fing that they cat harder to get rid of. Let them come, but let them go, don't try to hold on to it. It's like,"OH, huh, there goes that one again. Hmmm."
Just little tricks. When I get down, I get kind of whacky and very, very uneasy about everything. The unease is from my body and how it can't screen out things that should stress me and stuff it shouldn't worry about. It expresses itself as anxiety. Nasty stuff. Take care of yourself and I hope it lets up soon. LEt us know how it goes.