"Going Home" again....

Sigh....

I took "leave" to go back to a non-profit agency for counseling runaways/teen advocacy/homeless teens.....I used to volunteer there for 3/4 years when I much younger,

It's in a different location, the name has changed, the name of the section I used to volunteer there is nothing left by an adminstrative office, run by an abusive, "using" 75 yr old woman who has continued to volunteer from when I used to. (she's been a volunteer there for 27 years, she just turned 75...) I thought getting out (I'm also agoraphobic) and "going back home" would be uplifting for me....what an idiot!

other than another woman who now works w/ the new "counseling" section --- no one I have known is there. It's been almost 20 years ago....but the ppl who used to work there w/me, the rules were productive, the ppl there were the closest to "family" I ever knew...how could I be so stupid to think that "my family" would still be there "waiting for me" to come back?????YA GOTTA BE CRAZY!!

So I let this woman verbally "command" me what administrative that is ever known to complete w/totally unreaslistic deadlines; I allowed her to "use me" for 3 weeks doing massive amounts of work to meet the deadlines for what was going to be the first, official reunion of the original agency I worked for (I thought I'd get to see "my family" again... )NOT!!!!!!!

Since I had to do (create) ALL of the posters,graphics, data-bases, e-mails etc. (She has a computer-phobia) I knew everyone who was going to be there & there were 2 other ppl from "my era of service" still....I LET HER work me into a stress-induced "mini-stroke". I spent the "reunion dinner" on the ICU ward. However, I did reminesce in tears; I grieved for the "loss of my family." Today is Day 2 out of the hospital & she's demanding that I come in to work

I'm resigning...but the guilt is incredible...the other half of me is saying "stay the HELL away from there/her!!!) i cannot even enter this post in a short period of time b/c my entire left arm is still numb & my fingers are........

%#@&#!, like I mentioned in another fourum, "You can't go home again" I traded my ruby slippers for Army boots and then to nursing shoes & even those are so dirty they'd never pass for ruby slippers...........

Sorry folks, had to vent somewhere....thanks for listening!
w/ DAYZEE9.......aka Laura

Dayzee, that stinks that you had such a bad experience. Try not to feel guilty about resigning from a place that was bad for your well being.

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(((((((((((((((( Dayzee ))))))))))))))) (if ok)

wow, that sounds stressful! I'm glad you're out of the hospital. This woman is running a shelter for teenagers? wow. she doesn't sound at all supportive. can you report her to anybody? she doesn't sound like she is fit to run a support shelter - especially not if she behaves like that

Gee dayzee that IS stinky. Go figure. It seems those ppl who use ppl are really skilled at taking advantage of good people like you. (((hugs))) No wonder you're feeling depressed.

I'm really too depressed myself right now to give you any hope (checking pockets... no no hope.) But I do understand how low you are feeling.

Maybe I'll see you down here in the black pit ?

(((((((((((Dayzee)))))))))