I need help

I am going though a major bout of depression, and it's affecting my work and personal life. I feel like I have lost control of my emotions - I really have very little to be depressed about. I am trying to seek therapy, but I am unrealistically hoping for a quick fix. I also feel guilty because I knew I had a problem for years, and I never sought help. Now I'm paying for that decision. Would love to have people to talk to.

Hello, Outoftowner!
Depression is insidious, isn't it. Even if sometimes it can latch on to stressful life events to take root in us, it can find its way in without any traumatic handholds.
You're in the right place. Initially, how are you dealing with the episode right now? You are seeking therapy; are you seeking any other type of treatment? (No need to answer any of these questions; the conversation is yours to guide.)

((((((((((((( outoftowner))))))))))))))))))

This really is a great place to talk to people, feel free to post more.
Have you considered joining a local support group? That can also help to have people to talk to, it can be very helpful.

YES YOU DO have things to be depressed about. I hope you will figure out exactly what they are very soon. Then you can address those problems once they have risen to the surface.

I completely understand and if I can offer you any comfort by letting you know that if you do need to talk just send me a message or however it works on here. I am new to all of this.