[Poisoncontrol]

I am new here and this is my first thread. I am currently separated from my husband with no chance of reconciliation nor do I want to. After a long marriage he went thru mid life crisis and needed a change. We then proceeded to be extremely nasty to each other to the point that I hate him now and he hates me.

Fast forward 2 months and a half months.

I am in the process of dismantleing my life. We are selling my beloved home. I am moving away from here without my children. The x and I decided that it is best not to uproot them. I am seeing a new person and it is going okay.

My problem is that I am so overwhelmed by all that has to be done. I suffer from depression and have been doing okay up till now. Now I feel like there is so much chaos, so much drama that I just want to throw in the towel and call it a day. Give up. Just lie in bed all day and do nothing. I have no emotions right now other than despair. I have no idea about anything right now and and just feel empty. Like I have nothing left to give to anyone or anybody. I felt like this when the x left and I got back up and got going. A few things happened along the way and I got back up and got going. I just dont feel like getting up again.

Anyway...thats life...sometimes you are in the pit sometimes you arent.

[gimmeice]

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Welcome to psych central.
I am sorry that you are going through so much right now, have you given any thought to going to counseling or maybe joining a local support group?
There is a lot of support here, keep posting, it may help.

[googley]

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Welcome to PC.
I'm sorry you are going through such a hard time. It can be really stressful to have family difficulties. I hope that you are able to take time to take care of yourself.

[idontknow13]

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Anyway...thats life...sometimes you are in the pit sometimes you arent.
Hopefully you wont be in the pit for long.
Welcome to PC, you will find a lot of caring people here. Keep on posting!

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Poisoncontrol! What you described would be traumatic for someone not suffering from depression, how much more for you. Is it possible to ratchet back the pace of what has to be done?

Wishing you peace and rest.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hi poisoncontrol,

I know that feeling. I had to move several months ago and I was just beside myself, so overwhelmed with packig and cleaning and showing the place. It is just so hard at the best of times let alone when one suffers with depression.

I had a hard time too with anxiety & panic disorder as well as ocd, epilepsy, agoraphobia & diassociation. I don't know how I coped, but I got through it even though through just about every day I was bawling my eyes out and so sad and depressed that I thought I would die and wanted to.

Now several months down the track I am still depressed, still have all the other issues, but I am much less stressed now that I'm sort of semi settled. I don't think I will ever truly relax again because I lost so much trust, but I am doing the best I can.

Allow your self to take it one day at a time and do what you can when you can. Enlist the help of friends and even your ex husband. He lived there too you know, surely you can get him to help you to pack & prepare?

You will be going through a terrible time with the thoughts of leaving your children, ruminating in the back of your mind. That would be enough to send anyone off the deep end.

I really hope that you are able to kickstart your energy levels. I find when I am really down the b vitamins help a little and in some cases have helped a little light in.

And don't eat chocolate, it mops up vitamin b in the blood stream, leading to further depressive episodes...

Keep us posted,

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Rhiannon

[Briester]

I apologize for being so late to respond to this post. Welcome to PC. You've gone through so much recently and I know it must be very difficult to have to leave you kids and essentially start over again.

I hope the depression lifts some for you, even if only for a little bit right now and that your mind and heart find some peace.

Take care and again welcome to PC.

Chris

[Poisoncontrol]

Thanks so much for all your kind words. I am still in the pit just not so far down. Dont feel as hopeless today. Am trying to concentrate on simplifying my life and not having some much going on. ONe thing at a time.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

It's good that you are not quite so far down there now. We've all got our arms reaching down there to tug you out.

Have a huge yard sale, get rid of as much as you can and take the money...you will feel so much better once you de-clutter your life.

And if you move away and decide you don't like it, you can always move back...there is no rule that says moving back to a town means moving back in time...

((((hugs))))
Rhiannon

[greyday]

Sounds like you are having a tough time. Maybe it is time to think about seeing a therapist if you aren't already. You are in the middle of many transitions in your life. Things are going to feel confusing and out of place for a while, but if you are truly feeling like you cannot get out of bed then it is time to seek professional help.

[Briester]

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[lonegael]

Welcome!!!!