maximum anger level

im so angry right now, eventho i've been quite 'good' lately, i have some things to do so i dont think about my depression a lot like i always do. today, im just so sick to some people, i feel like i want to vomit right in front of them. i hate them to the point where i want to kill them, and then kill myself. so sorry i have to said that. like it or not, banned me or not, delete this thread or not, i will accept it. but i dont fake myself (like them piece of shits fake themselves!!!!!), this is what i felt, since long ago. me for who i am and what i am. these kind of things always triggered my depression and anger, im tired!! why im like this!!! im started to think about the other things right now, my circle of depression, it gets everywhere, every single point in my life. its damn killing me. but to be honest i hate to think about death in the same time, so im always trapped in this hole called life & not going anywhere, not until i die one day

Are you taking any meds to help with your depression? Does your doctor know that there are days when you feel really irritable?

no meds, no doctor, no money! no free services! im so damned

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I am so sorry you are feeling this way. It sounds so painful and overwhelming.
Did you know that some pdocs and tdocs have sliding scales? You can find a T through PC that takes sliding scales.

Just go to the home page and type in therapists in the search box. Then type in your zip code. There will be a list of therapists, there specialties and if the do sliding scale.

I hope things get better for you and soon.

Where are you located? Can you make an appt. with your regular doctor? He can prescribe medication for depression too. And walmart has all kinds on their $4 list.