[starrina]

I have had enough I am sick of
this merry go round ride that I seem
to endlessly ride sure I can put on a happy
face and pretend all is ok and to be honest
it helps kinda you know. I know my friend here
with me will never judge me but I am so afraid
of upsetting her and to be honest I am not use to
telling people around me how I am feeling
I think this is because I have not got T yet
I had 2 up in Queensland but here the system is different
and I guess I need to learn to be patient or something
I wrote to my old T the other day to let off some
of this bull in my head but it did not really help
so many things have changed over the last 3 months
and although I was doing ok I think it was secretly plotting
against me AGAIN lol if I had to use words to describe me right now
the words would be
"Sometimes I Feel Like A Sad Song Like Im All Alone"

[lonegael]

((((((starinna)))))) By all means, get ahold of a T! There is a huge difference between writing and talking to someone. It sounds like you really need to talk to sme one face to face rather than just through writing. Can you ask your T if she knows how you can find a good T where you are now? If you don't feel safe right now, see if you can have someone stay with you, or go to the emergency room. Better that then be alone when you feel so badly. Hugs, dear. I really hope you find the hope you need. remember, we are here.

Good luck, starrina!

[idontknow13]

((((((Starrina)))))))

[googley]

(((((((Starina))))))))
I agree with lonegael. Please take care of yourself.