[leacon]

As many of you know my father probably has pancreatic cancer. We probably will not know for sure until he much closer to being in really bad shape. He does not plan on anymore biopsies or tests. He is doing better now. Looks as if my parents may have some good time to be together before it becomes bad.
Wish I could say the same thing about myself. My anxiety has turned to a very deep depression. I do not want to do anything outside of my appointments and visiting my father.
I am going to tell my T on Monday that my father's cancer has triggered my fears of growing old alone. This fear brings out the worst depression in me.

[Berries]

Originally Posted by leacon

Wish I could say the same thing about myself. My anxiety has turned to a very deep depression. I do not want to do anything outside of my appointments and visiting my father.
I am going to tell my T on Monday that my father's cancer has triggered my fears of growing old alone. This fear brings out the worst depression in me.

Thank you for letting us know how things are going. I am sorry you are so depressed. Try to be gentle and with yourself as you would with a friend who was depressed.

I can relate to fearing you will grow old alone. It is an awful feeling. I am so sorry you are feeling this way.

Try and enjoy the times spent with your father.

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[lynn P.]

Thank you Leacon for the update on your father. I'll keep your father and family in my prayers. So sorry you're feeling worse. Try to be patient with yourself and take things day by day and moment by moment. Don't worry to much about the future because this can prevent you from appreciating what you do have right now. I hope you feel better

[Rohag]

Thank you. You all are in my thoughts. I'm glad you're determined to bring up your fears with your therapist; best wishes for an insightful session.

[Naturefreak]

Originally Posted by leacon

As many of you know my father probably has pancreatic cancer. We probably will not know for sure until he much closer to being in really bad shape. He does not plan on anymore biopsies or tests. He is doing better now. Looks as if my parents may have some good time to be together before it becomes bad.
Wish I could say the same thing about myself. My anxiety has turned to a very deep depression. I do not want to do anything outside of my appointments and visiting my father.
I am going to tell my T on Monday that my father's cancer has triggered my fears of growing old alone. This fear brings out the worst depression in me.

Leacon
So sorry to hear about your father. Like Berries said try to spend some quality time with him. I feel like I'm already alone and my father is still living. Be strong , he needs you to be. Take care and you both are in my prayers.

[justfloating]

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[idontknow13]

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[lonegael]

Thanks for the update Leacon. It's going to be a tough time for you and I hope you can spend some of it being nice to yourself while spending time with your dad. My thoughts are with both óf you and your mom. Peace to you all. HUGGS.

[turquoisesea]

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[Fuzzybear]

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[Berries]

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How are things going? How are you doing? How are you feeling?

[leacon]

My father went to the oncologist yesterday, and she seems to be pleased with his progress. The main worrisome thing is that he has lost weight. My mother says it is because he is not eating enough, but I suspect it is more due to cancer.
I also saw my T yesterday. I told her about my fears of the future, and that my not taking care of myself is my wish not to live much beyond my parents. Today I am feeling better. I think I am finally getting to the core of my problems, which I have tried to ignore for years.

[lonegael]

(((((Leacon))))) sometimes we have to be shocked into taking on the hard stuff. My heart is with you dear.