[complic8d]

I am just so overwhelmed! I am so tired of dealing with everything/ anything. I just want me to go away. Life is a trigger. Sorry.

[wi_fighter]

I feel where you're coming from, really I do.

((((((((((((((complic8d)))))))))))))

[sorrel]

((((((complic8ed)))))))

sending lots of tlc, a hug, a teddy bear, and a comforting blanket...I also understand....

Be gentle with yourself...

love,

sorrel

[Miss_A]

Aww Yea right at the moment it's the same for me! I Really can't face school until I fix myself and I just stay home sleeping, home work waiting for a ampointment to happen on Tuesday I hope soon. It's could to scream out, I really want something to smash. Your not alone, life can be hard...!

[complic8d]

(((((wi))))) (((((sorrel))))) ((((((MissA)))))
I know that you understand, although I wish you didn't because it's not a good place to be at all.
sorrel- thanks for the teddy bear and blankie, my "little girl" is so sad right now and hurting so much. My t "gave" her a "blankie" in one of our sessions, too. It's so comforting.
Miss A- hang in there too, get the help you need.

Thanks! Love you all. HUGS!

[sorrel]

(((((hugsforyour"littlegirl")))))

Pleased to hear that your t also knows the therapeutic nature of blankets....

sorrel and littlesorrels

[wi_fighter]

Yes, comp, it's not so great that we know what it's like, but we're all examples that we can pull through it, especially with great friends in here to help hold us up when we just want to crumple to the floor and not get up.


Psssst, sometimes I cling to one of my daughter's stuffed animals when she's at her dad's. There are always 3 or 4 of them in my bed from when she falls asleep on it. The best are the ones with microfiber "fur".

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((((((((((comp)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I am sorry your feeling down. Please pm me if you need to.

Luv ya,

Jen

[(JD)]

((((((BIG HUGS))))))

[Overcastbutclearing]

(((complic8td)))) (((everyone else feel alike)))

Please hang in there! We all care, we understand!

[Wants2Fly]

(((((((((((((((((((((((complic8ted))))))))))))))))))))))))

[cat_eye]

(((((((((((((((((((((comp)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I think I know how ya feel.
Hang in there, poptart!

[(JD)]

Is today any better? Maybe you do need to hide in bed and rest for a bit?

[complic8d]

Thank you, everyone! HUGS
Well, Sky, I can say that at the moment I am ok, but I don't ever seem to know which part of the roller coaster is coming next. Unfortunately my r.c. doesn't go any higher than ok, but the lows are sooo low. My way to cope is bed, where I feel safe, but I know that ultimately is not a real, positive coping mechanism. I guess it is at least safe for now. Thanks for asking! HUGS!

[sorrel]

self nurturing is always a good coping mechanism.
rest and recuperation is part of that.
I guess the crux is ?selfpity:self nurturing???
There is a subtle difference, at least with me anyway..

Feeling safe is priority(it would be for me.)....? What is YOUR priority?

hugs,

sorrel

[(JD)]

Personally, I'm not sure which is worse: KNOWING what is coming next on the rc ride, or NOT KNOWING!

I understand. I rarely find "happy" anymore... I feel like I go from low to lower and back to low. (And get some verification of that from my T.) I've had to accept the "fact?" that what I used to use as a scale to measure happy, sad, indifferent no longer works. That is in the past and now I need to view my life as it is, and if what I think is low (compared to the past) is now my "good" or happiest, then so be it.

What is also difficult, for me, is that some of this reevaluating comes with age. (Criminy, did I say that?????) I just don't know how much of it I can "blame" on the aging process of living and learning. Surely we can't find the sheer, naive enjoyment that a 3 year old gets... no, our peace might more likely come from an awesome overlook on a mountainside. Is it happy? Maybe not.

Who said staying in bed is not a positive coping skill???? I want to know! It sure works- positively- works- for me. Maybe the act of actually planningit is what makes it better? LOL Of course, I also have the physical limitations and need to prevent getting into pain/fatigue flares, so maybe I have an excuse?

Maybe it's called NURTURING yourself? Staying in bed, snuggling in, watching tv or listening to radio, or even the birds outside... reading... eating in bed whatever is a comfort...

it's ok.

[complic8d]

(((((((sorrel))))))) (((((((((Sky))))))))
Thanks. I guess my priority right now is safety, if in fact I am to survive (do I want to?) I guess what I meant was that every time I don't feel like I can handle things I go to bed. There should be something better than that, especially when I hav kids to take care of. (Poor kids) I wanted my T to help me accept the fact that this is how it is, but she won't let me believe it. She still has hope, where she gets it I don't know.
Sorry to be so down, and thanks for supporting me.
HUGS!

[(JD)]

(((hugs))) I'm sorry if it was you who came to support chat right when I was "arguing" for support (and not seeing it if it was there)...

I had been there a few times popping in and out rudely... and was trying to keep from breaking guidelines (no suicidal posts... etc... )

I'm really not able to remember each and every member and probs I'm wish I could... seems to me if your children are old enough to ... well, they can understand for their age levels what you can share... ? you know what I'm trying to say? Don't shut them out... like it's a big mystery to be secreted...

My T "keeps" my hope for me as I have none myself.

Sorry I am down also... crash and burn, that's me!

(((hugs)))

[complic8d]

((((((((Sky))))))) I felt so badly for you in chat last night, but I neither really knew what it was all about, nor was I in a position to be supportive. Just hugs.
My kids understand as much as they can, I just feel bad that they don't have this mom that is all involved and energetic and able to handle things. It's one of the things I need to learn to deal with.
Apparently, our t's know something that we don't, there is a reason for their hope, and if it's all we've got to hang onto I guess it better do. Hang in there with me, ok? Take care. Love ya! HUGS!

[(JD)]