Few words right now..............................

Today I sit and thoughts rush through my mind. And although there seem to be many, I still cannot bring many down to this screen. But they are going around and around in my head.

Being able to survive it doesn't mean it was okay. It really hurts.

dps

I'm sorry you are hurting, dps. I will be listening if you decide to talk.

Surviving does mean an opportunity to heal and grow. To be the master of your fate; the captain of your soul. Good luck.

Invictus
William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

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(((DPS)))
You have to try and find something to get your mind off things .
I have the same problem . If I'm not doing anything my mind goes places where I don't want to go . I don't know if that is something you can do . Just a suggestion. I only want you to get relief from all the hurt in your thoughts. Please take care . I'm so sorry my friend

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I'm sorry, so sorry that it hurts.

darkpurplesecrets

I feel for you. I get stuck in that train of thought in emotional times as well. No fun at all What does work for me in those times is to do something completely unrelated to everything happening. Exercise works best for me ~ it puts me in a better state of mind and finally write a little about what's on my mind.

Even though it still isn't as descriptive as I'd like it to be, it does help me to finally list the emotions and causes. I do hope that you can obtain a little distance from the overwhelming feelings soon. We're here for you when you're ready.

Shez

(((((DPS)))))) Things that hurt call out attention to them. it doesn't need to be "brooding" on something to have this happen, and I feel you have been through enough that there are a lot of painfull memories.

No, your survival does not negate how severe those injuries are/were. Chances are you survived in spite of how bad they were. And you know what? The byzantine is right in one thing especially. You are alive here and now, and there is a chance for you to make sure that YOU write the rest of your story, not anyone else.
It hurts, and hurting makes us turn inward. But don't stay there, dear. There's a world out there, and THAT is your inheritance as a survivor. Go on and conquer it DPS. HUUUUGGGGSSSS.

That's so true... I'm so sorry you're feeling like this, I hope it passes soon
Is there some other way you could find to express your emotions, other than putting them into words? That might help some. Just a suggestion.

Please, take very good care of yourself

(((dps)))
I feel your pain.

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You are totally right. Surviving does not make it okay! You are so strong!