[Mike_J]

I just got back from a weekly support group, it’s for dealing with Depression and Bipolar along with whatever other problems they have. Walking in is the hardest part, they meet in the same phyc hospital where I was unfortunately detained for a bit. My heart races with fear as I walk in, then after the meeting starts I’m usually ok, until it’s time to leave, I have to go through a set of double doors that are normally locked, I hate it when I press the button for them to let the doors open and they don’t do it right away, I feel trapped until I can push the doors open and there are no more obstacle to me leaving. I think a couple of the people there are a bit worried about me, not real reason to be more worried now than at any other times, but I did open up a bit more about how I feel that sooner or later my grasp on sanity will slip away, and when that happens.. well nobody knows what happens then.. very scary thought, but it’s a feeling that it’s going to happen, and I can fight as hard as I can and all I will do is delay the inevitable fall into insanity.. I know it’s not rational to think that I’m destined to go insane… but irrational feelings are just as real as the rational ones..

[Rohag]

Hi, Mike_J! Sorry about the fear reaction, but it's understandable given your history.

Feel free to ignore the following questions.

How long have you been attending this support group? Does it help you? How does it help you?

[Mike_J]

I have been going for over 2 months. One of the ways that it helps is sort of like aversion therapy.. I'm afraid of that builing but the more I go I hope to become desentized to the situation. Strange as this will sound, i'm probally the most stable person that goes there, so what I get out of going is knowing that I can help others. But I feel that while I'm the most stable one there I'm also the one in the greatest danger of doing something really drastacly bad

The term "insanity" apparently is no longer in scientific use. A therapist is trained to deal with cognitive distortions. Perhaps it would serve you to find out from a therapist what you are trying to deal with?

[nenamala4u]

U know i feel the same way when i have to go visit my psc...its like a weird feeling i get in the morning when i wake up, im scared and panic....even though i know everything its gonna b ok, i feel scared and nervous, and when im out, im back to normal, sometimes i get so nervous i star puking and puking, without not even kniwing why.......ITS WEIRDDDbeen fighting this, hoping to win the battle.....

[coko27]

Originally Posted by Mike_J

I just got back from a weekly support group, it’s for dealing with Depression and Bipolar along with whatever other problems they have. Walking in is the hardest part, they meet in the same phyc hospital where I was unfortunately detained for a bit. My heart races with fear as I walk in, then after the meeting starts I’m usually ok, until it’s time to leave, I have to go through a set of double doors that are normally locked, I hate it when I press the button for them to let the doors open and they don’t do it right away, I feel trapped until I can push the doors open and there are no more obstacle to me leaving. I think a couple of the people there are a bit worried about me, not real reason to be more worried now than at any other times, but I did open up a bit more about how I feel that sooner or later my grasp on sanity will slip away, and when that happens.. well nobody knows what happens then.. very scary thought, but it’s a feeling that it’s going to happen, and I can fight as hard as I can and all I will do is delay the inevitable fall into insanity.. I know it’s not rational to think that I’m destined to go insane… but irrational feelings are just as real as the rational ones..

Iam glad that you are In treatment thats a good thing and you are experince anxiety which Is normal when you visit a psych hospital or have to be in there good luck and huggs hope you get better

[kasc]

Originally Posted by Mike_J

I just got back from a weekly support group, it’s for dealing with Depression and Bipolar along with whatever other problems they have. Walking in is the hardest part, they meet in the same phyc hospital where I was unfortunately detained for a bit. My heart races with fear as I walk in, then after the meeting starts I’m usually ok, until it’s time to leave, I have to go through a set of double doors that are normally locked, I hate it when I press the button for them to let the doors open and they don’t do it right away, I feel trapped until I can push the doors open and there are no more obstacle to me leaving. I think a couple of the people there are a bit worried about me, not real reason to be more worried now than at any other times, but I did open up a bit more about how I feel that sooner or later my grasp on sanity will slip away, and when that happens.. well nobody knows what happens then.. very scary thought, but it’s a feeling that it’s going to happen, and I can fight as hard as I can and all I will do is delay the inevitable fall into insanity.. I know it’s not rational to think that I’m destined to go insane… but irrational feelings are just as real as the rational ones..