[SheilaJane]

So, I was pretty active on this site a few months ago because I was really struggling with depression and a few other issues. I went home for Winter Break (I'm a college student) and I didn't have internet, so I stopped checking. I got back to school and I was actually doing pretty good. I figured my meds were kicking in. It was nice. About a week ago I had an insomnia attack (slept 12 hours in 5 days) and now I feel like s***. I really can't help but wonder if this is ever gonna stop being an issue in my life. I'm sick of it. I can;t stand hating myself and my life and not being able to engage my friends or play my guitar or focus on school. I HATE DEPRESSION! But it seems like, no matter what I do, I can't break free from it's grasp. It sucks. I'm just ranting I guess.

[BashfullOne]

Maybe you could call your p-doc or whom ever you're seeing and let them know what's goind on - I don't know what you might be allergic to so I hate to state what you might try to help you sleep. My psych doc has me take benadryl (2) at night and they help me sleep through the night (plus help with the side effects of the Abilify that I take). I also take a pill for my panic attacks - that really relaxes me and so I can only take it when I'm home and not operating anything - it makes me sleep really well, also. You might want to ask him for some thing like that.

I'm sorry your feeling so bad. I wish I could help you - know that you have friends here and are more than happy to hear what you have to say. This is a good place to vent and rant!

[Rohag]

Hi, SheilaJane!

Originally Posted by SheilaJane

I really can't help but wonder if this is ever gonna stop being an issue in my life.

Speculation: I don't know how long you've been struggling with depression. You are correct, for some people it is a life-long battle. I suspect, however, it is far too soon for you to be able to determine the length of your struggle with the illness.

As much as possible, try to postpone your personal assessment of your depression to a time when you feel better. Even then, the observations and counsel of objective therapists will be valuable to you.

Originally Posted by BashfullOne

This is a good place to vent and rant!

Absolutely!

[SheilaJane]

Yeah, I've been struggling with depression since I was 14 and I am now 21... so it's been a decent amount of time, but I also know that it could turn itself around. I guess what sucks is that for the last 2 months it seemed like it WAS turning itself around... and now it's back. And it's intensely back. Like, it was all I could do to get myself out of bed today. I skipped my first two classes and my next class is in an hour and I'm gonna have a hell of a time convincing myself to go to that. But I need to cause I've already missed that class once and its a three hour one. anyway, I'm so glad for this resource. it is nice just to know that there are people somewhere who are willing to listen.

Take care of yourself, ShellaJane.

Hopefully after you get more sleep, you'll feel better- I know when I have little sleep I'm way more irritable and it's easy to let things get to me. Feel better!