Lost confused and diffused

I am currently a college student. And a older sister. I have younger siblings who look up to me. I beleive my depression started at the age of 14. After many roller coaster events in my life I realized I had to seek medical help at the age of 19. I see a doctor and therapist and i am on medication but I relapse alot. The past two months I have no motivation to do anything!!!! i dont want to get out of bed or go to class. i dropped my social life and recently stay in my room all day. Most of the time i feel misunderstood and have trouble expressing myself. I have trust issues. I am told by my family and friends that I am a pessimist and very sensitive. I am mad at myself because I am my worst enemy. How can i fight this depression off!? Its taking over my life!!!!

Darkrose,

Welcome! I know how you feel...I'm suffering through a recent relapse as well.

What medication are you on?

((((((((((((((Darkrose))))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are struggling with this. I would go to your doc, and your therapist. One to get meds worked out so you can feel better. Also therapy. It is a great tool. I know it hard work but it does work if we put the effort into it. It may take time too.

I too have had many of the things you stated, depression taking over, not wanting to do anything, I can't focus, hard to even get out of bed. Just remember this is the depression talking to you, and you can over come this.

Stick with your meds and therapy. I think these are your best options right now.

Hello & Welcome, Darkrose8909!
By this do you mean they're saying you "shouldn't" be pessimistic and sensitive?
Me too
Speaking on the basis of the raw statistics I've seen, you have at least a good chance of overcoming the worst of your depression and preventing it from taking over your life. Being in therapy and on meds significantly increases your odds of victory in the long run.

I don't know how you can fight your depression. Everyone's story is unique. You are already doing much against the illness. Perhaps the only thing I can offer, based on my own experience, is to be cautious about understating the seriousness of your distress to your caretakers out of a misplaced desire to "please them with progress."

All the best to you! Keep posting.

Now THAT was wisdom, Rohag!!!