[justfloating]

i just woke up to this crushing sadness, don't know why ... It's ... OH. I feel like I've been ambushed. I can hardly breathe, it hurts so much. I don't know what's happening. I need it to STOP.

[googley]

I'm so sorry this happened. I hope that it goes away soon. Is it nice out? Can you get outside soon?

[Miracle1986]

(((Rebecca)))
Keep posting if it helps you.
We are all here for you.

[jordyj]

i know how you feel and that is odd to me. I thought yesterday that i should shoot myself and it made total and complete sense in that moment. today i cant believe i thought that.

if it helps we can talk

jordy

Check your vital signs. Look around to see if you are in any danger. Determine if you are current in your school work. Have you had any personal setbacks that are troubling you?

If not, what you are experiencing is a lie, a fluke, that may be dismissed as an aberration. Think happy thought and proceed with your day.

[flora_poste]

You aren't alone, I think everyone on here has those days. I know I have been a lot lately. Sometimes too much happens and life gets really overwhelming. Many times these feelings are triggered by just one negative thought that we chase down and the more we chase it, the more horrible we feel. It's a really bad habit that can be broken. What was the 1st thing that popped into your mind when you woke up? Was it negative? Think about it. Negative feelings are caused by either negative thoughts or events... but mostly thoughts. Are these thoughts rational? Much of the time they aren't. Much of the time we get caught up in "What if thinking" and then we stress ourselves out or make ourselves depressed, yet we don't realize we're doing it and it's too often for no good reason. Try asking yourself two questions when you feel like this: what am I thinking to make myself feel this way and is it rational?

Hope that helps. Feel better soon!

[Envision]

Feeling any better?

[1flagwriter]

Justfloating, how are you feeling today?

[idontknow13]

((((((justfloating))))))
Let us know how you are. I hope you are feeling better

[justfloating]

It's been coming in waves all day. I didn't sleep well last night, so today I was tired and irritable. One minute I was fine, and the next I was draped in sadness. And then, as suddenly as it came, it would lift again. I set aside an hour each day to sit and have a coffee and read or write; it's my "me" time and I especially need it on days like today... But I had to get up and leave the cafe early because out of nowhere, I felt like I was going to burst into tears. I only had one class today and I'm proud of myself for having gone because it was the absolute LAST thing I wanted to do. I didn't pay attention and wound up doodling the entire time. I don't even know what we talked about, but at least I got there.

I'm just short on patience right now. Every tiny thing irritates me to no end. I've tried to keep myself doing busy, mindless work, like folding laundry and tidying my room. I'm exhausted, but restless. I don't know what the problem is. I just want to scream and scream and scream until I run out of air. It alternates between impatience and hopelessness. All of a sudden I'll deflate, and I have to take a few moments to remember to breathe and get myself going again. I have to remind myself why I'm here, why I'm bothering with my work, even my writing. This has happened to me before and from experience I know my mood generally levels out after a couple of days. I just need to let it burn itself out. These phases of mine drive me crazy, though. I can never see them coming. I just get the rug pulled out from under me.

[siempre nada]

I get you, right when I woke up this morning I started crying, angry that I would be caught in my own private
Hell again.

[thine_self_untrue]

I know this feeling well. That crushing sadness that you just can't shake, that burns in your heart, that soul stilling aching... I hope it lifts soon.

[flora_poste]

Is there any chance it could be hormonal? I know most of the time a day or 2 before my period I get really deep-down depressed. I cry for no reason, I'll have mild manic episodes, absolutely everything gets under my skin. Then my period starts and I'm like "no wonder!!".

(((((((( Rebecca ))))))))

[turquoisesea]

Rebecca, I know the feeling and I'm sorry you feel that way now - I've been feeling ambushed too. Remember to reach out, you have resources around you. Hold onto them now, and know that these waves will pass. *hugs*

[OrangeMoira]

Are you feeling better today?

Good job getting to class yesterday. It's good that you can congratulate yourself for that, even when you're having a tough time. I can tell you're fighting against the ambush. I hope it blows over soon!

[googley]

I hope you are feeling better.