[Miss Laura]

I am feeling really upset today. Its 2:47am and I am still awake. I am crying. I have been crying on and off all day. Why???? I am unsure

I have been talking to a friend about what my counsellor said and thats been playing on my mind and is making me a bit upset. Its nothign nasty its just I am so confused about who I am. When I asked my friend I asked her to be honest and she said what I thought she would say. I am pretty annoyed and upset and I don't know what to think anymore.

I am being a total idiot and I know that, I am being paranoid and weird and weird and weird and weird

Its now 3am and no sign of me getting sleep at all!!! WIDE AWAKE THINKING THINGS AND STRESSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WELCOME TO MY WORLD

[perpetuallysad]

What did your counselor say that you have been thinking about? Maybe if you talk it out you will feel better?

[Miss Laura]

We spoke about my sexual relationships which are non existing and she was asking me personal questions. Then she asked if I am gay. Which I am not. So I asked my friend and she said she had thoughts about that when we 1st hung out together. I am really upset about it as I am now questioning myself if I am or not or bi????

[NuckingFutz]

Sigh...please do not internalize this issue. Sounds like you were not questioning your sexuality before. I think you can drop this issue after you talk to your t and your friend about how this subject made y6u feel. Then put it to rest.

[theave]

Hope you managed to get some sleep - take care

[Cyran0]

It's simple, if you were attracted to the same sex, you'd know. Those butterflies of excitement, smirking daydreams of that certain person, lustful thoughts, they'd be there and you'd know it. So if you don't have those towards members of the same sex, you're straight.

So if all that's upsetting you is the uncertainty, that's easy. I'm bi and I've always known that I have a sexual attraction to my own sex.

But is that what's upsetting you?

[Miss Laura]

That's great thanks,

I am trying to think back to when I was a teenager etc but I have always been attracted to men. I like and feel safe with women but I do not love them in that way.

Ye I am upset about this, don't think its anything else???? Unsure though

Did sleep much eventually fell asleep around 6am and on and off till 11am over all about 2 hours great!!!

[turquoisesea]

I agree with other posters - I think you'd know. I know people can come off as different according to how they act around other people. I know I come off as WAY too flirty with most of the guys I hang out with, because I'm COMFORTABLE with them. This one guy in particular was a good friend of mine for 2 years, he had a girlfriend for most of that time. When I got a boyfriend he dumped me as a friend, wouldn't even talk to me because he had a crush on me. I don't know how long this had been but apparently I had not been clear about how I reacted around him. I had 0, ZERO, absolutely NO physical attraction or even emotional attraction in a relationship way to the guy. If anything in the opposite direction for physical appearance. (still luved him as a friend though )

I guess the point is - what you feel and what people see in the way you act can be VERY different things.

Only YOU know what you're feeling. Don't second guess yourself my dear =)

[Miss Laura]

I know, I guess its just playing on my mind and I am trying to figure out what or who I am- guessing games dont ya just love it!!!