day to day

I joined this forum last october with my wife being diagnosed with bipolar. Since then it has been a roller coaster. I am now divorced. After dealing with several false divorce proceedings due to my wife's back and forth thinking, she finally went through with it. We've managed to remain some what friends.

For the past few months i've come to the hard realization that i've lost her. I've lost her as my wife, girlfriend and friend. It's a hard truth.

The days are a roller coaster of emotions. Its almost like I'm having mini bi-polar episodes. I'm up and then I'm down. Lately the when I crash its harder than ever.

I don't have insurance so I'm going to our local mental health clinic to get what counseling I can.

Its hard to help yourself when you don't feel like doing anything.

Relationship breakdowns can cause a lot od depressive episodes.

and my heart really goes out to you.

It sounds like its been really difficult for you.

Im glad that you are going to the mental health clinic to see what counselling you can get though, thats a great start.

How are you feeling today?

You are grieving, red.head1071. It will run its course then one day you will realize you are ready to move on.

It'll take some time but you will eventually feel like your old self again. I'm sorry that you lost someone you loved. . In the meantime, please do keep getting help.