[jasongrk2011]

Please help me this problem has been causing me to not leave my bed all day and causes me immeasurable pain.My mind gives me excuse for not doing what I want to do and causes me to lay in my bed all day or refrain from doing certain things .It started in 2007 and slowly there was more and more things I couldn't do. At times the only things that it allowed me to do were stay on my bed all day/do chores. At times it was more about what not to do based on certain situations. I've tried to go against it to no avail.
If I listen to my mind and I don't do what I want to do, I will eventually get certain positive thoughts/things happen to me that wouldn't if I did what I wanted to do
If I listen to my mind ,and I don't do what I want, I will preserve positive thoughts about good memories and I will relive those positive memories, if I do what I want it will temporarily ruin those positive memories
if I DONT listen to my mind and if I do what I want, It will cause people from being born, sports results to be effected a la butterfly effect which causes me tension since I wouldn't want to effect sports results or births, however if I listen to my mind and I don't do what I want to do this won't happen
If I don't listen to my mind and If I do what I want, my past memories will be ruined by me not living up to them
If I don't listen to my mind and if I do what I want, things my mind will twist things people say and cause me to doubt things I know are true (things which if I think are not true cause me tension and depression etc)However this will not happen if I listen to my mind and don't do what I want to do
I was doing some creative stuff and my mind basically made me refrain from doing anything that i wanted because it would ruin my creative flow
all of these will are reasons and more would cause me to feel depressed, eventually the depression would go away and it will be like I was never depressed in the first place. I need a medication/techniques to beat this once and for all.

[SophiaG]

Wow i found this thread very difficult to read because 1) It was a wall of text and 2) I just didnt understand what you were trying to say .

However, I will try to understand anyway because you deserve some sort of a response. I apologize however if it seems as though I've misunderstood you.

This sort of seems like a word salad, also you might have a delusion or two because of the "effecting births and sports" comment you made. These are signs of schizophrenia. but I could be very very wrong about this.

I dont understand why you have all these rules and fear. You should try to disprove your fears and your rules in order to get better.

That's my 2 cents. =)

[lynn P.]

Hi Jason,
it must be very difficult struggling with your emotions everyday like this. Have you told a doctor how you're feeling? You need to have a through evaluation, so you can get some relief from this personal prison.

Of course we can't diagnose you, but I hear you have many 'intrusive thoughts' and some delusions. Remember these thoughts aren't true, so don't let them dictate your life. You may just need a medication, to get you feeling better and functioning. Please visit your doctor and tell him/her exactly what you told us. Good luck

[Maxime]

Hi, I am sorry that you are suffering so much. I had difficulty with understanding your post, but I can tell that you are great pain. Have you seen a psychiatrist about your problems? I think that you should. Are you on any meds right now?

I wish you all the best.

(((((jasongrk2011))))))---You sound as if you are in a great deal of pain.
Please get some help?----------------theo