Sucide

I think about sucide sometimes (two years) . My parents don't know that I've been sucidial, now going onto my third year I'm able to hide it. Actually I'm probable more depressed then sucidal. The one thing I think about is what about my family. I'm only 15. Please no answers go talk to someone blah blah. I might idk though. All I want is to hear some stories about people who have lost a family,friend,granchild,niece to sucide. Thanks

Hello & Welcome, Sammysoccer!

You may find some stories in the Grief and Loss Forum.

The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention has a Surviving Suicide Loss resource page and a free pamphlet (.pdf) "Surviving a Suicide Loss: A Resource and Healing Guide," which doubtless contains accounts of people who have lost family members to suicide.

http://www.wfaa.com/news/local/Army-...94709989.html#

I've lost two close friends to suicide and it was devastating. Actually it continues to be devastating because I feel responsible in some way. Like if they had called me when they were so down I could have helped them. Or why didn't I contact them? It was an eye opener for me because I have attempted suicide several times and I always thought that people would be better off without me. I was wrong.

Please speak to a counsellor at your school about your thoughts of suicide. They can help you.

My little brother (he was 14 months younger than me) committed suicide when I was 18. I was, and still is, the most horrific and devastating thing that has ever happened to me.

You're so young, there is every chance that you can get better. Nobody grows up and feels the same as they did at 15.

Try to imagine if a friend of yours committed suicide. Imagine all the things they would miss out on! At 15 what have you really experienced? Have you travelled? Have you had a job you love? Have you raised your own children? There's so much you would give up. And that would hurt you and also everyone who knows you, everyone who wants to see you do all those things and experience them with you, but would never get to.

I'm 25, much older than you, but even in my life there is sooo much still to do. I'm still so young.
I've known people commit suicide, nobody close, but people back in school (even a teacher). There was a 16 year old boy (a friend of a friend) who committed suicide when he was 16 because he was being bullied. I look back now and I think it's tragic, such a waste. He just wasn't able to see that the way he felt THEN wouldn't last. He would have soon left school, if he was determined enough he could have talked to his parents and got them to switch schools, he could have even refused to go to school, if he was THAT miserable he could have done something to change it, or even just get through it... he could have asked for help, he could have reported the bullying, he could have told his parents, he could have gone to a doctor. And right now he could be 27, he could have been to uni, travelled, had a family. I don't believe for a minute he'd still be being bullied, he was actually a nice, clever boy, he would have made so many new friends by now. All he had to do was hang on, and he would have been able to experience so much more life, so many more experiences. But he stopped at 16. He stopped at the worst year of his life and he never let himself get through it. He never did anything. He didn't even get to be an adult, make his own choices, be his own person, find a job he likes, friends he clicks with, a family etc etc. I'm sure not a day goes by that his parents don't think of him and regret not noticing, not doing more to help. They never got to know what he would be like when he was 18, 25, etc
I still think of him and I wasn't even a close friend.

There were other people along the way who died. Kids. Just think of all the things you miss out on if you give up when you're 15 (or even later)
You can recover from mental illness, depression doesn't have to be permanent. With help, therapy, meds, a change of situation, you can feel much, much better.

There are lots of stories on these forums about people losing people to suicide. A lot of people are messed up because of it and are depressed BECAUSE of it.

Please take care of yourself and get help. There's no shame in admitting you are depressed, it's not your fault, not a choice. If I could go back to when I was 16 and tell myself to get help, I definitely would. My biggest regret is not getting help sooner. I would have really enjoyed my experiences so much more if I'd been well through them all.

Sorry if I sound like I'm preaching, I'm just concerned.

my best friend died....two years ago and initially I thought he had killed himself. Even when I found out that he hadn't killed himself, I still felt awful. His death was the first one of someone I had closely known, to die. I blamed myself, i laid awake at nights wondering what I could've done to prevent his death. I loved him very much.



I will always miss him.