Depression is ...

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Moved back home after 6 years.. left all my friends, left all my support system... left my T. Moved back to a place where the depression started... to a place where nearly all my social ties have been broken/neglected, and to a place where I don't have any access to a T, or anyone to talk to.

that must be hard jaq...the more we confine ourselves in a solitary life, the more we'll gonna feel lonely, try to pick up those broken pieces one at a time...
you're not alone you got a lot of good friends here...

Sending you hugs...

Don't forget, you can always talk to us here on PC.

Even if you feel lonely, you're not alone.

((((((((egshell & Moon))))))))
Thanks for the support.. much needed.

I'm sorry. It's hard to start over. It will get better but it takes time and that can seem like a huge hurdle. Use your online friends to help for now and remember that you will have the chance to start over.

Jac!!!!! we really need to keep in touch. Wish you could come to chicago!

Im here if you need me friend!!!!! You know how to get ahold of me. Im always available.

Love ya, try to keep your chin up

C

((((((canine))))))) thanks for the support.

((((((Colleen))))))) ... what would I do without you friend. One of these days we'll have to have a real catch up.

Hi jacq10,

Hope you can find a new T you can relate to...

thanks Elana .. unfortunately I don't see that happening. Not much access to such services where I am right now... hopefully i can find someone IRL to chat with that isn't a T, yet understands things.... we'll see.

jac, sorry to hear you are sad about some of the situations caused by the move. Can I ask the reason you moved back home? Will it benefit you in some ways?
I think whenever you move it takes time to adjust, things will get easier and hopefully you can find some new friends where you are now.
I can relate to quite an extent because I moved back home a year ago and it took a while to adjust. Actually now I'm scared of when I have to move back out again! It's been hard though and I haven't made any friends here, it's just a town and everyone has been here forever (or are polish or iraki etc and keep to themselves) so I've had no idea how to meet people. I guess I'm just waiting til I'm able to move somewhere bigger, where people are looking for friends.

BOOURNS!

that's crappy. I know if I moved back into my family's place, I'd wind up more depressed myself. That SUCKS. Why the move back, if I may ask? (You may have already mentioned it before, by it's almost 2am and my memory went bye-bye) Or are you just there for the summer?

Have you thought about phone therapy or online therapy? Better than nothing. I'm sorry about losing your T and support system, that's not fun at all to have to deal with.

((((((Jacq)))))))

I'm so sorry you had to move home and lose all of your support. That really sucks. I hope you are able to connect with some of your friends from when you lived there before.

Thanks so much everyone (((((((((( Lisa, Christina, Googley )))))))))

I moved back home because I really didn't have anywhere else to go after I graduated from University... coming home made the most sense financially, and pretty much all of my friends were leaving my University town anyhow so I guess there wasn't much to stay for. Plus where I was living, finding jobs was a huge challenge, and so there was more opportunity for employment back home. I'm only staying for a year (hopefully) and I'll leave again when I get accepted to grad school.

I have thought about online therapy, but for me, a huge part of my therapy was the in-person connection that comes with it. Sure talking helps, but the physical aspect of it, my T's presence in my life, was a big deal for me. I am looking into resources that might be available to be over here, should I need them.

I've had a good couple of days though... connecting with people, and so I'm feeling better than I was when I initially wrote this. Its interesting though, that even after having a busy day, at the end of the night I still feel like crying. I guess thats just the nature of depression though, right?

Anyhow, thanks again for the support everyone... very much appreciated.

I know how it feels. I am in a small town where I don't have T. I just go to my family doctor to discuss any issues. I have big support online at chat sites. You can try a chat site I go to regularly (pm me for the link) there are some good people on there. Just ignore the bad people on there. There are good and bad on every chat site I'm afraid. But it's not hard to notice the bad ones and ignore them.

Congrats on graduating at least?

Grad school, huh? Good for you! I was going to apply but got scared off.

Are you gainfully employed at the moment? If you're not, perhaps going to the city/place where you're going to be going for grad school would work?

I can have the best day ever, and yet still feel like crap at the end of it. Depression always cycles, and the cycles aren't always good.

Thanks friend...

And yes grad school is the plan, I applied this year but they told me I didn't have enough work experience As for the location, I'm going to apply to a couple of schools so I think i'm just gonna stay where I am. There are worse things I suppose..