[googley]

I hate my life. I don't know that I'm ever going to like it again. I'm so stressed out. I can't get a job. I can't afford T. But without that I can't feel better. I'm scared that I'm never going to feel better.

[sunsetsunrise]

safe hugs for you Googley. I truely believe that the right job is out there for you. I am sorry its taking so long to find it. (((((((( hugs for googley )))))))))

[Elana05]

(((Googley)))

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((((((((((((((Googley))))))))))))))))

Sending you lots of love and hugs dear Googley..you will feel better please hold on

[Naturefreak]

(((Googley)))

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Sending you many hugs and positive thoughts. I hope you are feeling better soon.

[Rohag]

((((((( Googley! )))))))

[MoonTurtle]

(((Googley))) Sending some hugs your way!

[Yoda]

It is scary when you don't know if you are going to get better. I remember asking my Pdoc several years ago if this is as good as I am going to get. She was honest and said, "I don't know". Fortunately I did continue to get better and I hope I can someday do even better. My new Pdoc said it was like a roller coaster and I would be going up and down so just expect that I would feel differently from time to time. He wanted me to know that is normal and it didn't mean I was doing poorly because I had down times.

Are there any therapists in your area that can treat you for free or reduced? My son has no insurance and he sees a physicians assistant for free. Neither my son nor I care much for him but he writes the prescriptions my son needs. How long since the last time you had a therapist?

[El-ahrairah]

Man I hear ya..... singin to the choir <333

I hope you feel better, just keep loved ones close and keep your head up and maybe something physical and you will get by these tough times <3

[SophiaG]

Googley have you always been depressed? Maybe this is just a reoccuring feeling and you have to keep this in mind. Depression will come, depression will go.

Hell, I'm not doing anything and I feel low. I have absolutely nothing that is stressing me out. And yet...

Yeah, it's just me. It's me, its our brain chemistry ****ing with us telling us the whole bloody damned world is coming to an end.

I read DC comics Googley and in particular, I read Green Lantern comics. There is a corps of lanterns called the Blue Lantern Corps. They have an oath that goes something like this:

"In fearful day, in raging night,
With strong hearts full, our souls ignite,
When all seems lost in the War of Light,
Look to the stars-- For hope burns bright!”

—Ganthet and Sayd, Green Lantern (vol. 4) #36 (December 2008)

Hope is a very important thing when one suffers from Depression I think, for depression is the very thing that darkens our outlook on life and urges us to not have hope. To give up.

Yesterday, i saw Survivorman with Les Stroud. He got dropped off from a helicopter on the top of a mountain in the middle of no where. I said to myself "haha I'd give up right then and there when the helicoptor left instead of trying to survive." and then I realized it was my depression talking to me. This is a perfect example of what depression does to us. It saps us of our zest for life and our will to live, to strive and keep our morale up.