[sweetsorrow]

I have been really down today. Left the house once, put absolutely NO effort into my appearance, nothing. I came straight home and slept for HOURS, then woke up and cried for HOURS. I hate this because I was happy, ecstatic actually, just yesterday. I don't understand why I am like this, no matter how hard I fight it. Whenever I think about it, I think there is a strong possibility of me having a big problem. In real life, however, I feel like I can just make it go away by itself. My IQ is quite high, over 180, so I feel like maybe there is just a fine line between genius and insanity. I constantly hear, "Oh it's just hormones...:" except I don't think that my behaviour can be justified by that alone. I want to avoid medicines and therapy at all costs, especially because I know that in some cases those practices last for the rest of one's life. So what are my options so I can start living life without suffering?

Love,

Sweetsorrow

[(JD)]

Welcome to psychcentral. Sorry to hear you're down. That you are trying physically to be active but can't really get into it, sure sounds like depression.. and you need either psychotherapy or medication to change things back to normal.Catch it early and it won't take so long to "fix".
I personally don't appreciate anyone who uses "just" casually.. as it sounds minimizing! Hormones out of balance can kill us or cause us to !!!! They are very important and help run the body. There are natural alternatives to drugs for hormone imbalance, and if there's chance that's a big part of it, then try it! Blue or black cohosh, evening primrose oil etc...

I understand the high IQ.... it can be a handicapp at times, and can make us our own worse enemy in trying find logic in illogical happenings. sigh

[Valis]

I agree with the above.

I think with high intellegence comes over thinking, and constant self evaluation, which in its self at times can be a curse.

[Hope4me2]

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welcome back and wishing you the best

Hi SweetSorrow,

I have one question for you! What is wrong with being on medicine for ones life? Just would like your reasoning for that, as you make it sound like a curse.
Please note, I am not being sarcastic even though it may sound like it.

Respectfully,

SongBird

[sweetsorrow]

Oh I don't mean for it to sound bad! For many people it is a great (and often life-saving) option. I am very young, however, and I don't want to rush into a lifelong method of treatment when that might not be something I need. I don't want to start taking a drug meant for long term use without exploring other options first.

Ok, I understand sweet, and again, I was hoping my post wouldn't come across as bad. Just wanted to know why you felt that way, and I don't blame you for searching into other options.
However, I will tell you, don't let any depression go for to long, as it seems the longer it goes without treatment, the worse it gets, and the option you are seeking might not be there anymore.....That is what happened to me, as there was apparantly to much damage done, now I will be on "vitamin P" for the rest of my life.

Sincerely, SongBird