I don't know why I am here

I suffer from severe depression, social phobia, social anxiety, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, mild PTSD, and some OCD, and truthfully, I don't think that's all. I'm on medications but don't think the anti-depressant is working right. I moved recently to an island, 3 blocks from the water, somewhere I thought would be my dream come true. I have been in the house for about a month, not leaving unless I have to go do something. At first I was dying of boredom and it was making my anxiety horrible so I have changed my boredom into time on the computer playing games and laying in bed watching tv. That's it. That's all I do. I am going to try to start college again in the next couple of weeks and am hoping that it will kick me back into feeling like I'm not just wilting away. I love the ocean and the pelicans and the beach, but don't even want to take a walk to the beach anymore. I don't know what to do. I'm tired of wilting away like this! Do you think that starting college is going to help me. Should I just try to make it through the next two weeks and then try the school thing? Last time I attended school, it helped my self esteem alot, having a schedule helped me a lot also.

Hi, Canusaylonely!
Based on what you say here, reentering school is an excellent idea. Of course there's no guarantee it will solve all your problems, but school seems to provide you with a nurturing environment.

In the meantime, I wish you the energy and focus to get yourself down to the beach and the pelicans.