[LittleForgetMeNot]

I'm 15, I have a false image of who I am apparently. I think I'm fat, or at least getting there, (110 pounds, couch potato, a bit ill proportioned, I don't think I actually ever lost my "baby fat") I think I'm mean, a horrible person, undeserving of anyone's love or affection, I don't feel very pretty, or a very interesting person.

But they (my boyfriend, my best friend, and the number of boys who have a crush on me) think I'm everything the opposite of that. That I'm really attractive, that I'm sweet, kind, and extremely deserving. I don't understand.. I can't see that all in myself.

It's not that I lack self-confidence. I can go out with my head held high and be proud of who I am, that I don't care if I'm mean or kinda fat or anything.. But the person I'm proud of, who I think I am, is a different person from the girl everyone else sees.

It doesn't make any sense. Maybe it's because I'm just depressed, or just because I'm a teenager. But it's hard for me to believe them when they say those things about me. It's hard to see the good in a lot of things for me actually.. How am I supposed to believe them?

[WikidPissah]

I always felt that way as a teen (I'm 45 now), but I look back at photos and I think, sheesh I was kind of a hottie! It really pisses me off that I didn't know that back then! You have a poor self image, and you need to work on that...now because it doesn't go away by itself. Do you have a counselor at school that you can talk to about it?

[sadmomof_1]

i feel the same way u do and im 32, i dont see anything in myself at all i feel like a looser!

[feary]

I am 36 and I feel the same

and it is getting worse

try forcing yourself to dress up every day and pamper yourself

[Butterflyangel]

I have always felt that way about my outer appearance. I am now 38yrs. old and can't see the light yet. I think even then the only thing I thought beautiful of myself is how I was there for everyone else. You should keep in mind that even now take care of yourself and keep in mind that it is not what is on the outside, but what you are on the inside. because a person that is beautiful on the outside but very cruel and uncaring will be seen as an ugly person. So if you are proud of who you are on the inside then it shows on the outisde, and that is who you are, and these people will see that along with your outer beauty.

[LittleForgetMeNot]

Originally Posted by Eileen2010

I always felt that way as a teen (I'm 45 now), but I look back at photos and I think, sheesh I was kind of a hottie! It really pisses me off that I didn't know that back then! You have a poor self image, and you need to work on that...now because it doesn't go away by itself. Do you have a counselor at school that you can talk to about it?

I'm not in school yet, I have a few more weeks to go. I talk about it with my friends though, those who are patient and honest with me all the time.