Hole

I'm depressed, I'm drunk, and there is no way out of the hole I have dug myself into. Awesome.

Hi, Jmall!
How much digging did you really do? With your eyesight, the social side of your illness, and being told you're "not a good candidate for antidepressants," it seems you've been swimming against the tide a long time. I'd be thoroughly worn out.

@MSUBeau7 I am specifically depressed about everything. To be honest. My life, as a whole, is a shithole.

@Rohag it doesn't really matter how much digging I did. I'm the one in the hole. I don't have to motivation to climb out. Everything is just so complicated. I've been sitting here, eating only goldfish for 3 days. I don't have to balls to commit suicide. None of my friends notice I am depressed. Which makes me more depressed. I lie to them all about everything trying to hide it... I fool everybody except myself, when I look in the mirror I see somebody I HATE. It's not even dislike. I honestly cannot stand myself. If I weren't me. I'd punch myself.