It's a P R O C E S S....and I am trying to remember this

Had my second T appt. last night.
It went well. I still have some "black slimey" feelings that linger in my head. I still get triggered with intense anger over the smallest things.
And, I am committing to the fact that becoming well is a process...and somedays will be better then others.
I get so easily frustrated. And when that happens I immediately go to the false comfort of thinking if I were gone it would be all better.
I need to figure out how to stop that thinking and redirect it to a better way of dealing with my anger, hurt, rejection.
Even if there is no real rejection, even if I just feel abandoned in my head because I am so sensitive...I need to lengthen my "fuse" in order to redirect my emotions so I don't just see things as ALL BAD.
Anyay, that is where I am today.
Trying to remember it is a process and complete change does not happen overnight.

It sounds like you are making some great realisations!
As you know, I can relate to a lot of this
Thanks for doing such a good job of verbalising on here..... it helps those of us who are cave dwellers!
Thinking of you,
Your black slime buddy

I agree with Fuzzy. You did a great job of conveying so clearly that this is a process. Just reading your words reminds me that it all is a process. A slow, painful and very trying process. Its nice to know that we are not alone in this. That we can face this and know that the dark cloud will lift. Thank you for this post. I am so glad you know exactly what you need to do. Take care.

Hugs,


Jen

damn woman you are sharing some important wisdom with all of us here!!

ty for sticking around during this process you are going through and for helping others remember that this IS A PROCESS and things aren't ALL BAD.

we hope you have more good days than bad of course. we continue to be proud of this work you are doing as your committment is admirable. you made the choice to take care of your needs. you made the choice to do the work. your choices are what will help improve things in your life over time while you apply this process you are learning.

(((sj))) you rock lady!!

susan, your words are invaluable to others.....thanks, for sharing your "process".......xoxox pat

Thanks, SJ, for reminding us all that it IS, indeed, a process. I've spent many months crawling out of the abyss, and am now in the light! Damn hard work too!
You are doing the work now, and I hope you too will soon be in the light, free of your depression.
Healing thoughts,
Seeker

Thanks for your healing thoughts and well wishes and I am glad that I can write something that inspires or reminds others.
Let's all continue on our journey knowing we have conquered another day!