Wrong family, wrong life, wrong everyting

I truly believe I was born in the wrong family. I don’t fit in in one single way. My family loves to drink and live up in the sticks. I don’t drink and hate living here. I go into the city whenever I can. I seriously believe I belong in a family like the Kardashians. I live with my grandparents right now, have been for a over a year and all they do is fight with each other and complain about EVERYTHING. It drives me nuts! Plus they burp nonstop and never say excuse me and I am big on manners. And my grandma wont stop smoking and it freakin kills me. And me and my mom r 2 opposite ppl. If I didn’t have the self control to control my temper me and my mom would be at each others throats nonstop. And I don’t have support from anybody in my family. I just got into IADT Sacramento for graphic design and all I hear from everyone is u should have stayed in community college blah blah blah. I have told them like 100 times I wasn’t getting anywhere and it would be at least another 3 yrs before I would get an associates degree but in this school I will be getting my bachelors degree in 3 ½ yrs with career assistance. Its been 1 month and I still don’t have any support from anyone. And I literally have only 2 friends that I can talk too. And to top it all off, I don’t have a job. I quit radioshack due to certain things but am having a heck of a time getting another job. It makes me have to rely on my boyfriend which is horrible for someone like me who is very independent. I’m literally sick of all this depression and anxiety.

IADT Sacramento looks like a great place! Will studying there take you away from your current environment?

I know what you are going through, I had the same type of situation growing up. However the only difference is I lived in the big city and longed to be in the sticks.

I come from a large family (lots of aunts and uncles) but I still didn't have a support system. I have never fit in with any of my family members and my mother is a very controlling person. She was very upset with me when I didn't go to school to be a doctor or lawyer. In fact we were at each others throats constantly. In my case it got so bad that we didn't speak to one another for 21 years.

However, it sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. You are reaching out for support, you have the self control to avoid situations and you are taking control of your career path. Way to go!

I understand where you are. I feel the same way and I know that is part of my depression. I have grown alot and talked to a few people and they said they did not see me the way I see myself. I am the parent of 3 grown children and am raising 2 of ones children and half raising the third grand. I feel used and abused but these children did not ask to be brought into this world and I do my best by them. I am approaching 60 and I get tired. I have a dysfunctional family and it is difficult to be the rock. Get your education and leave them behind. An alanon statement: I did not cause it, I did not create it, but I can contribute to it. One day if you are not careful, you will be like me, taking care of them all and they do not appreciate a thing but expect it. If it were not for children, I would walk away.

i wish but no. i will have to take online classes so i will be stuck at home even more because i dont have a job for the $ to drive down there. been trying to get one but i live in a very small town and any new ones get taken very quickly

i think a lot of us feel as you do...about family. like the saying goes, you can pick your friends but not your family. imho, you just do what feels best for you. it sounds like you've got a good head on your shoulders. you've got a plan for your future. it's like they say, plan your work, then work your plan! i don't get it either when i don't get the support i'm looking for from family but my T reminds me, why are you so surprised? ..like i already know this about them. lol. it would help tho if you networked out at school and made some friends. my friends mean so much to me and are there no matter what. i can't say that about my family.