Safe haven

I'm not sure how to begin really.

It's just... things here at home suck really badly that I just don't want to be here anymore. And I have one more year left in this hole that I'm just not sure I can make it without spontaneously combusting.

Right now my only safe haven is school (I'm a senior in high school), but even there it's starting to not feel safe without anyone to talk to and the looming fact that I graduate in seven months. But it's the only place I have where I can take my mind off the crap that's going on here at home.

I honestly just wish I could leave, maybe I could handle my depression better in school if I just left. I don't mean run away, just like... find someplace else to live. Yah know?

Eh, I'm not sure what I'm trying to say. I just hate that being at home makes me feel worse than I normally do. =(

Hello & Welcome, Dinosgorawr16!

It has been many years, but I definitely remember school being a refuge from home, or at least from my parents.

True -- home can interfere with school, and when school is important to you such a situation is maddening. What kind of "suck" are you facing? (No need to answer; an analysis of the "suck" may lead you to the right kind of assistance.)

Welcome to the forums!

Unfortunately, taking off will only ADD more stresses and problems, plus you take your existing ones with you. Do you have someone you trust at school that you could talk to? A teacher? Counselor?

Sharing the pain and confusion might help uncork the bottle a little bit.

@ Jilliebeanmn - Yeah, I do have a teacher I could talk to. I'm not one for talking to counselors - I just can't seem to feel comfortable around them and it's easier that I talk to someone I'm comfortable with.

And as for the stress at home: Living at home has always been a very mentally hostile environment. My dad is.... an extremely angry person pretty much all the time. He does not abuse me or any family member... he just yells. A lot. Nothing pleases him. Especially right now since my parents don't have any money but we have a broken pipe leading into our water heater that's leaking horribly (think miniature waterfall horribly), he's just freaking out more and more. And on top of that my mom also suffers from depression like myself, and I have to try to keep her stable the best I can while also trying to keep myself stable.

At this point I've had so much of my family's crap that I just feel I'm going to snap if I don't get out of here. And I'm afraid it will have a hugely disastrous outcome when I do snap.