i am taking my meds. which came first, the pain or the depression,this time? i found myself today almost bursting into tears in a store. for NO reason. just wanted to sob and sob. just down so far that i see no sky at all. just darkness. my daughter really needs me now (josh leaves soon) and i feel useless. help, please.

[Lexicon78]

My depression is getting worse and I know what you mean by wanting to cry for no reason...I do that a lot. I'm sorry you're suffering right now. All I can offer you is an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on...

My depression seems to get worse and worse as time goes by...can't get in to see my pdoc for another month, which sucks. I'm getting no help from my T because she won't be in her office until Monday. I'm pretty much screwed. I'm a mess...I totally understand where you are coming from.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((pat)))))))))))))))))))) we need to talk. we could lean on each other. i'm in the SAME place. it's a dark, scary place and we can hold onto each other thru it.

be safe, hon.

kd

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((((((Pat))))))))))))))))))))

I have gotten to know you pretty well over the past several months and one observation that I have made of you is that your an incredibly strong woman. I know that right now, the depression, coupled with your pain feels like it is getting the best of you but, it is not. You can push through this. Try to distract yourself as much as you can. You are not useless. You are needed and loved very much IRL and here. Keep your head up.

[Parker10]

Sooooo sorry Pat ! I can hear your pain and frustration in your post. You are going thru alot right now, please take care of YOU, so that you can be available for your Daughter when Josh leaves. Take it moment by moment. We are all here for you.

[Overcastbutclearing]

((((((((((((PAT))))))))))))
I am sorry you are having such a rough go of it.
I am here for you.
Please just try and take care of you. Do what makes you feel better...put in your favorite music, look through photo albums of friends/family.
I know you just want to sit back and feel like lead...or at least that is what I prefer doing.
We are hear! We care!

guys.....thank you....i'm going to do laundry and just "kinda" re-arranged my bedroom. hung one painting that has been on computer desk since i moved in. laid out jewelry supplies so i can make shirley's daughter some earrings. am forcing it...forcing, forcing, forcing. i thank you so much for telling me i'm strong. i put on a stronger bra and that helps somewhat. i miss my mother.

[Fuzzybear]

I am sorry I missed this Pat
Sending you warm thoughts and care,
Fuzzy

[wi_fighter]

Aaaargh!! Pat, you're not accepting PMs. I just typed one all up because I didn't think it needed to be on the boards, and then it wouldn't go through.


Glad to hear the industrial strength bra is helping.

[(JD)]

Yeah well the SKY is still there (and here) for you.... remember, above the clouds the sun is ALWAYS shining...

AND there is ALWAYS a reason (even though you felt there was "no" reason for the tears) we just aren't always in touch with what that reason it.. depression is such a tough thing to battle, as it takes our primary weapon and turns it against us. Keep on keeping on.