[thunderbear]

Ughhh where to begin.........

Well, I am sad this year. I'm always a little sad during the holidays since Mom's been gone, but I always get excited as Christmas draws near. But this year, it's differant. I can't even watch all the Christmas shows or see those commercials with all the toys my kids want. My husband was supposed to get called to start work today at this company that pays very well with good hours and some overtime. We got happy and excited because we were going to get the boys a good Christmas and for the 1st time buy eachother something, but now since they have'nt called, I don't know what we're going to do. I started drinking again. Not alot, just enough to help me sleep, 2 fingers of whisky every other night. The stress is horrible. I can't eat, I keep headaches........ugh sorry for the whining

[Rohag]

Cruelly ironic -- "The stress is horrible" because you deeply love your family and are unfailing in seeking their happiness. Love is no stranger to pain.

No matter what else happens this season, may your husband and sons catch a glimpse of how much you care.

[Leed]

Bless your heart ~ no one in a family feels the stress and pain more than the Mother.

I'm sorry things are so uncertain this year. And I'm doubly sorry for the loss of your dear Mother. I know how hard that is, as I lost my Mom a few years ago, and my Dad 20 years ago, and I feel like an orphan. Holidays are rough without the people you love.

Please keep the faith ~ and I will say prayers that the job will come thru . God bless you and your family. Hugs, Lee

[lonegael]

(((((((((((Thunderbear))))))))))) thinking of you. HUGGGGGSSSSS.

[eskielover]

Sometimes things happen to bring us back to the real meaning of Christmas & celebrate the JOY of that rather than the material worldly aspects of Christmas.....better to have one gift given from the heart even if it's made from things around the home from what you can afford than a boat load of toys that don't teach our children the basic values that are so important & which is the best gift we can give them.

Sometimes we end up being forced by circumstances to bring us back to the grounding we tend to forget otherwise......the that is wrapped up in Christmas

[SophiaFlying]

I too am struggling with the expense of Christmas and my mental illness is so severe right now I can barely keep myself out of the hospital much less organize my thoughts to make anything...I am bordering on psychotic right now....my heart goes out to all of you who cannot make ends meet and the pain you feel about not being able to get your little ones the things their friends have...it isnt their fault that they are seduced by the media....I hope some things work out very well for you Thunderbear....maybe not all, but some...and I too am sorry to hear about your Mom. I will pray your phone rings with work and you have peace in your heart soon. Stacy may

[thunderbear]

Thank you, Stacy May and prayers to you as well

[whenwillitend]

I feel for you thunderbear. It's so hard when our kids are so excited about christmas, and we just can't share it, because we know we can't give them what they are looking forward to. I totally understand. We sold our bigscreen tv so we could buy some presents for our kids. It was an old tv, so we didn't get that much for it, but enough for some presents for the kids. We haven't given each other anything in years, but the kids are more important. Yes, christmas should be just about the joy and love, but everyone with kids knows how sweet their excitement is on christmas morning, when they tear into their presents.

I hope something comes up for you and things get better. Have you looked on Craigslist for some cheap toys? You can get some really good deals on there, and the kids won't care that the toys aren't brandnew.
Good luck, and your kids are lucky to have a mom that cares and loves them so much!

[turquoisesea]

(((((Thunderbear))))

I really hope you get that call, or maybe that you can make a call and get a job

[Naturefreak]

((thunderbear))