I've hit a dead end

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know who to talk to or anything. I feel angry and upset at myself, Im constantly being put down shunned from my family and when i try and speak up I get mocked for not saying anything. The child services case that had opened recently is in motion for being closed (the 3rd thats been open). I realize everything's going to go back to normal it already is and I know its gonna get worse. I don't if I can even make it through the night. Im ready to give up, everyones already given up on me its not like it would matter. I feel like im drowning, and no matter how hard I trying and keep my head above the surface I can't. Everyone keeps telling me things are gonna get better but there not.

Hi

You seem to be having a hard time. Welcome. Hope that posting gives you an outlet. I'm willing to listen aka read.

I'm here too and have been on a variety of sides of the whole cps crap.

There closing the case because "there is no evidence that there is any harm at hand". So there just going to walk way like they did the last 2 times and let things continue. My mom says things are gonna get better and that they will be different. Its hard to beleive with him constantly telling me how ****ed up i am, how "emotional disterbed I am" like its none of his fault.

Hello. I can completely relate to you. My father abused me verbally for years, and it has really affected me in my present adult life. He beat my mother for 30 years, and after her death, he viewed me as his new "fun project". My father is a sociopath, this I know. I am living proof that damaged words from an authority figure can really damage one's psyche.

((((HUGS)))) sorry you're having such a hard time - I hope we can offer you some support during this difficult time.

I know hes trying to seem more family like, but like I know his addiction is something thats hard to come though. I just wish that he'd just try. Im the oldest and its like I have to protect my mom and my younger brothers. I can't think how hard it is on my mom. I feel like theres no relief from this