Here I go again

Why does everything have to feel so bad lately? I should be so happy at this point, I'm 26 weeks pregnant. As selfish as this sounds, the weight gain is really getting me down lately. I know it's just temporary, and I fully intend on getting my figure back afterwards, it's just hard because none of my pants and some shirts don't fit now and lately it's just helping to fuel my depression. I feel like a horrible person for feeling that way, plus a failure of a mother already. How could someone who's going to have a child care so much about a few extra temporary pounds? Has anyone else had these feelings and been able to lose the weight afterwards? What is wrong with me?
No one around me even understands, or wants to. I hate sounding like a loser on these forums, but I have nowhere else to turn. I'm alone again tonight. All I can think about is horrible things to do to myself after my son is born and safe with his father. He doesn't need me anyway. I'm sorry if I'm bothering anyone, I should just go away now. Everything is so black, no matter what I do.
I just want to wake up happy again. Will the rain ever stop pouring?

((((((((((((((lost))))))))))))))))) i HIGHLY suggest you talk with your dr about what you just told us. please print this out to him and take it in. hormones (changes) could be affecting your already existent depression. please discuss this with your dr. he may be able to help. you're going to need extra attn after the birth for depression as well, I'd say. talk therapy can also help big time.

as far as weight being an issue. i think every pregnant woman thinks about that. you're going to do just fine with that.

please contact your dr. you shouldn't have to suffer this alone IRL.

be safe,

kd

(((((((((((((kimmydawn))))))))))))))))

I felt the same way when I was pregnant with my first of three sons - i ended up losing weight with all three! Don't let other people get you down when they tell you how HARD it is to lose the baby weight - that can really get overwhelming. I suffered postpartum depression with my first and second son - talk to your doctor. Sometimes we just need to give ourselves a little slack when we are pregnant - your hormones are going nuts, and that can make you feel out of sorts. Surrund yourself with people who love you, and remind yourself that the weight gain is for the little person who is going to be healthy because of it!! Congratulations!!!