[Yack]

I haven't slept in 3 days. I keep talking to all of my friends who are happily at home with their parents in my hometown. It is killing me.

I don't know anyone here, as I have said. I am not at all quiet. It's just the nature of the area - everything is so spread out it is virtually impossible to meet anyone.

No one in the group of houses where I live comes out much. We have a Shop Rite, a few pizza places, and 2 tiny strip malls. The main street, which is the only place I feel comfortable since I am used to the suburbs, is a block long.

All of the roads are labeled "country road xxx"...mostly local people who are from here hang out at the small restaurants I have found. I met a girl yesterday who was probably in high school who treated me like crap, and believe me, usually I could care less...

I am used to the city and very crowded suburban areas. No one where I grew up would ever be that rude to me. In any given day I could walk out the door and run into 20 or 30 people I know, without even trying. In New York City I met people constantly.

I was actually excited when my family sold the house originally, but I did not know this was what I would get.

I don't want to sound childish, please don't think that...I really don't know what to do...I was on my way out the door until I got sick from the whole trauama thing.

I am afraid to be alone now.

[Psyclox]

It is a kak one to move away from your friends and the only life you have known for so long, people can be mean, but you know what I do when people are mean to me I just tell them to go and ***** themselves, its life, I myself hate change in fact change makes me even more depressed than anything else does but you know what just be yourself around people if they don't like that then screw them they aint worth it then I find that when I'm on my computer I'm the happiest but it is good to have friends when i moved away from home for the first time I didn't know any1 in the knew town except my old friends but they had all changed and didn't really like the person I turned out to be so I left them to be them and i had no friends for a long time until sum guys at work just up and invited me paintballing and from then on I had friends and I must say they were they best friends I had ever had, you will make friends it just takes time, so hang in there.

[dottie]

(((((((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))))))))

+Big hug+

~Dottie