[brit500freestyle]

I have been feeling depressed lately and I keep trying to hide it. I guess that I think if I pretend enough, it will just go away. Everyone keeps telling me how proud they are thatI am doing better and that I am happy. I do not want to upset anyone. I already put my family through enough. I keep thinking that maybe it will just pass. I don't know what to do.

[ayana95]

If your feeling depressed you might need to share. Is there someone that you really trust that you can talk to? Do you have a therapist? I usually try to hide it when I am really depressed. It usually doesn't work for me. It affects my whole demeanor. It's written all over my face. I hope you feel better. You can also post on here and maybe you'll feel better knowing we all know a liitle about what your going through.((Hugs))

[Leed]

Hi ~ I'm not good at hiding my depression. My face shows it ~ you can hear it in my voice.

Please either call your therapist, or your doctor. Are you on an antidepressant? If you are, maybe it just needs the dosage changed - or perhaps the depressant itself needs changing. Sometimes we become "immune" to the antidepressant and it stops working ~ and we have to be put on something else. I've had to change a couple of times. But don't keep things as they are -- it won't get better by itself.

Make the call to one or the other. I wish you the very best. God bless you. Hugs, Lee

Originally Posted by brit500freestyle

I have been feeling depressed lately and I keep trying to hide it. I guess that I think if I pretend enough, it will just go away.

While I don't think that my depression will go away by pretending everything is fine, I find that it definitely helps me to keep pretending anyway. For me, I HAVE to pretend that I'm fine in order to go in to Uni and do my job. If I let that act drop, I can't function. I'm not saying that this is right for you, or that it is even a healthy thing to do all the time, but it definitely has a place in keeping me functioning in my life.

Originally Posted by brit500freestyle

Everyone keeps telling me how proud they are that I am doing better and that I am happy. I do not want to upset anyone.

Yep, that's a big problem of pretending everything is ok unfortunately. I don't rly have an answer to that I'm afraid, though everyone close to me knows that I'm a very good actress and that it is all an act. And so they do occasionally remember this and ask how I am really doing.

I agree with the others that you need a safe place to talk honestly about how you feel with a counsellor/therapist, if you don't already have one. I see a counsellor fortnightly and it is the only place that I can let the mask slip for a bit and be honest with myself about how I really feel. I hope that you too get this opportunity.

Take care

*Willow*

[disguise123]

reach out love, your friends and family tell you they are proud because they love you. They will not be disapointed, they will be grateful and proud that you asked for help. It sounds hard but its you looking after yourself.
Best of luck and people are here if you need them.