[Can't Stop Crying]

I'm sorry I write so many posts...I truly am alone. My T helps, but I guess that doesn't count much in terms of a support network and I don't like to disturb him in between sessions. I have my boys who I love very much and my husband, but he has such a hard time coping with my MH issues. Those are the only people in my life...

I was holding it together. As long as I didn't stop, I could keep the depression at bay. Well, it kinda blindsided me by how intense it has become. I don't know how to get my feet back under me. Everything takes so much energy now, energy I don't have.

Medication, therapy - they play a role in keeping me alive, but they don't keep me from falling apart. I'm frustrated. I've spent years working on this, I have my ups and downs, but the downs are getting more frequent and more intense.

I'm scared this is how it will be forever - just barely hanging on

[disguise123]

dont be sorry, its great that you are posting. Wish i could make it easier on u!!!

[FFABD]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

I'm sorry I write so many posts...I truly am alone. My T helps, but I guess that doesn't count much in terms of a support network and I don't like to disturb him in between sessions. I have my boys who I love very much and my husband, but he has such a hard time coping with my MH issues. Those are the only people in my life...

I was holding it together. As long as I didn't stop, I could keep the depression at bay. Well, it kinda blindsided me by how intense it has become. I don't know how to get my feet back under me. Everything takes so much energy now, energy I don't have.

Medication, therapy - they play a role in keeping me alive, but they don't keep me from falling apart. I'm frustrated. I've spent years working on this, I have my ups and downs, but the downs are getting more frequent and more intense.

I'm scared this is how it will be forever - just barely hanging on

Never a need to apologize. In this place, you are not alone. I feel the pain in everything you said, the exhaustion, the lack of understanding and the desperation to be "better". All of us know that here. Hang in there. Hug.

[lavieenrose]

I've been in that place, too. Countless times. I've had depression all my life. Even recently, a grinding daily despair was driving me crazy. I'm feeling better currently. You will, too. Nothng in life is permanent. Please keep reaching out to others here. They understand what you experience. The isolation is the worst part, not having enough support. I hope that you can find something that will help your mood, help you to cope.