[Maria38Divine]

Here's what's on my mind: After a year of calling my church (the one I've been attending for the past 4 years), leaving my numbers and then leaving them again and again because they lost them three times, I finally run into my pastor in the supermarket and he's suddenly eager to pick me up for church in the morning. Then last Sunday he's all touchy touchy during the drive to and from church. I'm now thinking that he's a pervert and I don't want to go back to church. This is the same pastor I sent a message to 2 months ago telling him I needed help because I wanted to die and he didn't respond. In my book, he's like the rest of them - only interested in helping you if there's something in it for them.

When does it end? I reach out to friends and they give me crappy advice that just ends up hurting me more. I reach out to family and they just hope my illness goes away quickly. I reach out to my church and no one answers me until couple Sundays ago and now I don't want to go back because of the touching thing with the pastor. I reach out to a psychiatrist and he puts me on meds and tells me to come back in three weeks and then when I return he refers me to a psychologist and tells me to come back to see him in 2 months. I reach out to the psychologist and when I call to confirm my appointment that I made a couple weeks before I hear that they have no appointment for me and she's not working on the day I thought I had the appointment. I am tired. I am seriously tired.

[lavieenrose]

I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time trying to get the help you need. It sounds so frustrating. I'd hope that you don't give up. Can you reschedule with the psychologist? Are you staying on the medication and do you have another appointment with the psychiatrist? Keep reaching out for support, here and IRL. Best wishes.

[Yoda]

Sorry the church people are so uncaring. Perhaps you could find a church that suits you more.

My pdoc makes all my appointments three months apart but I can ask to be seen before then if I am not doing well. Did they reschedule you another day with your T?

[Maria38Divine]

Originally Posted by lavieenrose

I'm sorry that you're having such a hard time trying to get the help you need. It sounds so frustrating. I'd hope that you don't give up. Can you reschedule with the psychologist? Are you staying on the medication and do you have another appointment with the psychiatrist? Keep reaching out for support, here and IRL. Best wishes.

After 2 months, I decided on my own to cut my meds in half. It has helped because the fogginess in my head is much reduced and I'm having less yawning with nausea than before. My follow up appointments aren't automatically made before I leave the doc's office, so I have to call in to schedule something and right now I just have zero motivation to do that. I know that at some point I have to get another prescription so I'll need to go back, but right now I ain't feeling it. I know it's my health and I have to keep trying, but I'm tired of pushing on my own. I've been struggling on my own with this thing since I was 12 and now I am almost 40. Sometimes I wish the right help would just come to me.

[Maria38Divine]

Originally Posted by Yoda

Sorry the church people are so uncaring. Perhaps you could find a church that suits you more.

My pdoc makes all my appointments three months apart but I can ask to be seen before then if I am not doing well. Did they reschedule you another day with your T?

Hi Yoda, I may just have to look for another church. I think I'll rest for a while though. I thought this one was the right one, because they seemed so family oriented, but I guess not.